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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥

@pandainlingerie.bsky.social

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Ex Indie Game Dev🎮🔨 (want to 🔁 in future), Comedian😆, Singer🎤, Guitarist🎸, Poet🖊️ (nvr shown here). 아미💜⁷. AnCom🌍. Vegan🌱. City of Robin Hood🏹, UK🇬🇧. Autistic♾️🧠. Can read Birth Charts♉☀️♏🌙♍🌅. Estranged Orphan😮‍💨. Mentally ill from relentless traumatic stress🧠⛈️.

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 3d

I am cursed to be so intelligent, beautiful, and funny, that very few people believe that I am insane, which I indeed am.

I am also cursed to be insane, in such a way that those who recognise it, do not understand nor believe me to be intelligent, beautiful, and funny, even though I very much am.

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 5h

Fucking love past life stories on YouTube and Reddit from drug drips, NDEs, OBEs, meditations, sleep-derivation and then sleeping and going several layers of consciousness down.

Comment on a YouTube video saying
"Man, this edible ain't shi- Becomes a planet for 4.82 quadrillion years."

Another saying
""I was a hill" 😂😂 Gotta love the sheer ridiculousness of salvia."

Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 10h

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 2d

The way I immediately knew that this was about TS but then 💭 that I ought to check, instead of assuming, and I was right.

Perhaps why I've never vibed with her bar a few of her early to mid 2010s songs.

I always thought of it as "spoilt girl music," and I've had a brutal life, so, I can't relate.

Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 10h

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SugaKooky ⁷ @sugakooky.bsky.social · 3d

I just heard someone on TikTok call it “music for white women who peaked in high school.” That’s a statement.

Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 10h

@lazysass.bsky.social. 🤭

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 10h

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 11h

"What every Taylor Swift Song Sounds Like To Me." 😆

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 11h

"What every Taylor Swift Song Sounds Like To Me." 😆

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 11h

Conservatives are stupid and I don't respect them.

They don't understand cause and effect and are wholly selfish, wilfully ignorant, and obsessed with being on the benefitting side of double standards, at their core.

They've all got some form of NPD or similar.

Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 11h

Stanzi Potenza on Charlie Kirk.
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Charlie Kirk died and so did democracy.

YouTube video by Stanzi

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 17h

I'm starting to realise and accept that I am just better than most people/average.

I didn't want to bc I didn't want to not believe that others aren't capable of the same levels of decency (or be "arrogant" or "conceited"), but tbh it's just facts that I'm better than average, and so are you. 🤷🏼‍♀️

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 17h

That's actually genius - I never really think to lie unless it's a literal livelihood situation then I will lie to authority to survive or ensure another's survival, but maybe I could message her that.

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 17h

Lol! 🤭

Idrk Dragonball, but if Super Saiyan(?) is when they get upset, it sounds like your toxic cousin and my toxic friend are trying to get us to go Super Saiyan! SadLOL.

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 17h

My tolerance is lessening lots the more I age and the more that I experience it.

I have learned from this experience that I will avoid struggling people in the future bc I'm just sick to fuck of being dragged down by them and my mandatory-feeling kindness towards them that delays/ruins my life.

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 17h

Yeah, dw, I didn't mean anything abt you deciding for me, but just explaining why I don't feel free to just yet and commiserating w u abt ur cousin (I'm hoping they mature and heal swiftly enough that this bad behaviour quickly dies out and becomes a long forgotten unless prompted/reminded memory).

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 18h

Oh, damn, that's difficult for all involved!
Must be in a lot of pain, but also that doesn't mean that you have to be/soak it all up for her.

How old is your cousin?

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 18h

She has the whole fucking Internet at her fingertips - I had much WORSE C-PTSD than she's ever fucking had, and I learnt to fucking do it, so she's choosing chaos/oblivion for the drama of it, which I've looooong grown out of and absolutely DO NOT vibe with and it triggers my flight response. 😬😰😱❤️‍🔥

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 18h

She puts 0 effort into finding healthy coping mechanisms in which to emotionally self-regulate and throws victim-playing tanties when encouraged to.

Not to say that she hasn't ever been victimised, bc she abso has, but sb tellin u learnin to wipe ur own arse emotionally is gud, isn't victimisation.

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 18h

I feel nagged.

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 18h

Which microtriggers me into not wanting to talk to her even more bc it shows a sense of entitlement to my time, attention, and energy, and like I'll get to it when I fucking get to it, the more impatient and demanding you are, the more I want to fucking run in the opposite direction!
Clingy = scary!

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 18h

And I'd not long woken up, and I still haven't eaten, yet, and I'm not at all hydrated, and I was watching Hasanabi reacting to people saying that Taylor Swift's new album is racist and putting PS1 Spyro Skybox prints into tiny frames one by one and then she's double messaged me asking me if I'm up,

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 18h

She messaged me today and I didn't respond because to be frank, I don't enjoy talking to her because it's the emotionally equivalent of tiptoeing through a minefield and then administering medicine and bandaged to the minefield when one of the mines blows your limbs off with no medical aid for you,

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 18h

Sadly I don't feel free to release myself from her because I'm her only peer and offline friend and she'd have khs if not for me helping her through her lowest points.

It is starting to trigger me a lot though and make me Avoidant when she reminds me of past abusers DARVOing/tantrumming boundaries.

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 18h

And that last thing you said, sometimes they just enjoy their life whilst parasiting you and you're suffering for it, but also even worse sometimes even with all of the bending over backwards people pleasing, the ppl ARE STILL NOT PLEASED, and so it's like
"Why am I helping this ungrateful leech?"

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 18h

This is so wise, Holy fuck!

Yeah, I've noticed I've wasted a LOT of energy that would have been MUCH better spent on upgrading myself n my own life on selflessly pouring oceans of patience, kindness, compassion, and generosity into others who wouldn't give me a drop back without guilting me for it.

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 18h

I'm trying/learning to do the same - thing is I love so hard and am so compassionate and patient and generous (time, energy, resources) that most people can't "match my freak" in that way, so, I need to somehow dilute that about myself or just find a way to be better at holding back and boundaries.

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Lucy ⟭⟬⁷🎤🎸Ⓐ🏴🌱🛸👻🔮🧜🏼‍♀️🐦‍🔥 @pandainlingerie.bsky.social · 18h

I just reread what you said;
the phrase "she is trying to pick fights with you" is somet that's just dawned on me - she definitely does do that... Whether consciously or subconsciously, Idk, but I'll say something factual and helpful and she'll take it as arseways as possible and throw a strop. 🤦🏼‍♀️😮‍💨🫩

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