If it wasn't for the store I tell myself, will I still wake up. And if I do, I would be pretty pissed about it. Congratulations life, you exists, now what. You just exist, till you don't. And when you are dead, you can't ever be fucking alive anymore. What a fucking joke.

I can find all the excuses in finding all the information of the world I live in, yet when I had found everything or in reality, got tired of finding. I'll find myself alive. What the fuck. If it wasn't for those excuses, that bullet for boredom, would I still have lived.

it would've still existed. I can say so, because I know the universe is big and empty, but will life say the same.
Why the fuck am I still alive, all the food, sex, sleep, work, excuse, desire, delusion comfort, pain, chase, ... all for this. For this, this living.

I exist in the world, of all the things that I know, if I didn't knew the world I exist in, I would still exist.
What if life hadn't exist, will it matter, of course there will still be matter, just like so many rocks, gas, planets, stars, solar system, galaxies, universe,

If nothing else, this is me putting a hand up and saying: I’m looking for depth, not hype

Maybe this already exists and I’m just not in the right rooms.
Maybe it doesn’t yet, and that’s the problem.

If this resonates with you, I’d genuinely like to connect—no pitch, no agenda. Just conversation, learning, and maybe, over time, community.

I’m looking for people who care about systems and humans. Who think in second-order effects. Who are comfortable sitting with ambiguity, ethics, and trade-offs—not just metrics. People who read widely, question their own assumptions, and aren’t trying to win a narrative.

Closed rooms, loud incentives, founder mythology, building for the sake of building. Very little room to ask slower questions without being dismissed as unambitious or “not shipping.”

I don’t think the problem is technology. I think it’s culture.

But the dominant conversations around them leave me uneasy.

So much of the discourse feels optimized for growth, speed, and narrative dominance rather than understanding—of people, of consequences, of what kind of world these systems shape once they leave the whitepaper.