life is the ocean and i can't swim
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in this space i share
mostly food and weird/sad thoughts
sometimes a sunset
Fair warning: I'm going through some things
mostly food and weird/sad thoughts
sometimes a sunset
Fair warning: I'm going through some things
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I didn't know how much I liked talking until I had nobody to talk to
I wish I had found a man who worked harder to find ways to make good things happen than he did to say no. A man who wouldn't stay silent when I brought things up because he knew eventually I'd get tired of talking. Someone who valued me and my thoughts, not my silence. A man who actually loved me.
January 17, 2026 at 8:22 PM
I wish I had found a man who worked harder to find ways to make good things happen than he did to say no. A man who wouldn't stay silent when I brought things up because he knew eventually I'd get tired of talking. Someone who valued me and my thoughts, not my silence. A man who actually loved me.
I feel ferociously, abundantly alone
January 13, 2026 at 4:03 PM
I feel ferociously, abundantly alone
There is nothing like being actively and intentionally ignored by the people you'd really love to talk to
January 10, 2026 at 6:36 AM
There is nothing like being actively and intentionally ignored by the people you'd really love to talk to
The only thing getting fucked over here is my sleep schedule 🫠💀
January 4, 2026 at 4:53 AM
The only thing getting fucked over here is my sleep schedule 🫠💀
I'm so far removed from being able to go on a real vacation / even taking the kids to Disneyland. These are not realities for me, they are dreams, nearing impossible. All because I made several very bad decisions in men, and I wasted 10 years building with someone who hid how incapable he really was
January 4, 2026 at 4:18 AM
I'm so far removed from being able to go on a real vacation / even taking the kids to Disneyland. These are not realities for me, they are dreams, nearing impossible. All because I made several very bad decisions in men, and I wasted 10 years building with someone who hid how incapable he really was
The deep pain of the heartbreak outweighs the intermittent joy from the time together, and that's why it's too risky to search for love again. It always leaves a gaping hole that I suffer through alone 💔
January 3, 2026 at 10:39 PM
The deep pain of the heartbreak outweighs the intermittent joy from the time together, and that's why it's too risky to search for love again. It always leaves a gaping hole that I suffer through alone 💔
It's funny how when I choose to not reach out first my phone is absolutely silent, what do I do with all of my words? (The Internet gets to hear them instead)
January 3, 2026 at 9:21 AM
It's funny how when I choose to not reach out first my phone is absolutely silent, what do I do with all of my words? (The Internet gets to hear them instead)
First New Year's Resolution:
No paragraphs to dismissives to try to convince them of anything
No paragraphs to dismissives to try to convince them of anything
December 31, 2025 at 10:31 PM
First New Year's Resolution:
No paragraphs to dismissives to try to convince them of anything
No paragraphs to dismissives to try to convince them of anything
There is consistency in "nothing lasts forever"
"Everybody leaves" follows a pattern
The only thing constant is change
"Everybody leaves" follows a pattern
The only thing constant is change
December 30, 2025 at 6:29 PM
There is consistency in "nothing lasts forever"
"Everybody leaves" follows a pattern
The only thing constant is change
"Everybody leaves" follows a pattern
The only thing constant is change
Don't cry because men keep breaking your heart, smile because you'll never let one close enough again to repeat it
December 30, 2025 at 6:08 PM
Don't cry because men keep breaking your heart, smile because you'll never let one close enough again to repeat it
It honestly doesn't matter which one you choose because they'll both leave you
December 30, 2025 at 5:51 AM
It honestly doesn't matter which one you choose because they'll both leave you
Imagine being invited into my very small circle and then choosing to ignore me completely
December 30, 2025 at 5:17 AM
Imagine being invited into my very small circle and then choosing to ignore me completely
The thing is, I have a hard time believing people can/do love me because I constantly encounter patterns of it getting taken away or they seem to suddenly change their minds without telling me. The trust isn't there anymore
December 29, 2025 at 8:30 PM
The thing is, I have a hard time believing people can/do love me because I constantly encounter patterns of it getting taken away or they seem to suddenly change their minds without telling me. The trust isn't there anymore
Hey Google, where have all the good men gone?
December 29, 2025 at 7:08 AM
Hey Google, where have all the good men gone?
When I say I didn't have friends I mean my friends literally hang out together without me even though I've been asking them for over a year to go do things with me 💔 it's very painful
December 29, 2025 at 3:25 AM
When I say I didn't have friends I mean my friends literally hang out together without me even though I've been asking them for over a year to go do things with me 💔 it's very painful
The ugly feeling that you're single because there's something terribly wrong with you that everyone else can see, so you dedicate the next few years to "fixing yourself" because that's gotta be the problem (this is a form of perfectionism, btw)
December 28, 2025 at 10:53 PM
The ugly feeling that you're single because there's something terribly wrong with you that everyone else can see, so you dedicate the next few years to "fixing yourself" because that's gotta be the problem (this is a form of perfectionism, btw)
WTF take me with you 🥲
December 28, 2025 at 7:18 AM
WTF take me with you 🥲
My love life feels like a riddle I need to solve but I'm illiterate
December 28, 2025 at 7:15 AM
My love life feels like a riddle I need to solve but I'm illiterate
I can't make my brain stop saying "but I love you" even though it's an impossible scenario
December 28, 2025 at 7:12 AM
I can't make my brain stop saying "but I love you" even though it's an impossible scenario
Know what sounds nice? An honest, emotionally mature, caring, responsible yet fun man who wants to be part of my life and truly know me as much as I want to be part of his and get to know him ❤️🥲 they're hard to find
December 26, 2025 at 7:36 PM
Know what sounds nice? An honest, emotionally mature, caring, responsible yet fun man who wants to be part of my life and truly know me as much as I want to be part of his and get to know him ❤️🥲 they're hard to find
I should be embarrassed by what I'd give for the bare minimum from a guy rn
December 22, 2025 at 2:24 AM
I should be embarrassed by what I'd give for the bare minimum from a guy rn
Oh I'm fine, just tired. Very tired. All the time, tired. But how are you?
December 21, 2025 at 11:26 PM
Oh I'm fine, just tired. Very tired. All the time, tired. But how are you?
Perfect breakfast today
December 20, 2025 at 3:44 AM
Perfect breakfast today