oh yes. my mind is absolute mush after working that much, so easy to squish around with a few suggestions and a sense of safety

but then i just crave being touched, touching, kissing, cuddling. i just desire someone all mine and im all theirs and we go as deep as we want both physically, psychologically, and emotionally

but i see people in nice hypno relationships and it makes me sad. i'm already an odd bird, so finding a nice friendship plus hypnosis plus eroticism without weird feelings (o think i have this growing with Irish Boy) either way is hard.

feeling ugly just comes up a lot in my life even though i think i'm cute and people tell me im beautiful and ive never had trouble dating, and men obviously think im beautiful. but then i just feel like i cant measure up. then i get weird eating disorder thoughts but i manage those well now