all of this I'm saying while I keep trying to update everyone on commissions at the same day (I couldn't work on a single ref sheet I've been asked weeks ago and it's eating me alive)

so yeah, mentally I'm not doing good either, but I'm trying to endure!!!!

I think I spent like $450 in just hospital and meds, and it's still not over
I'm so grateful for everyone who's been helping but I feel horrible, I cannot keep up the pace and deliver as promised and I still need money and it just feels so wrong

I want to just lay down all day but that won't do

I already ran out of money, Max and Swampert saved my a** twice this month. At this moment I honestly feel very defeated, I'm very delayed with commissions 'cause I spent more time at hospital than at my home

I've been coming back drained and I just managed to play a few games with close friends

and I gotta go to the hospital all this week
I'm gonna end up like that one frame of Pim from smiling friends.....

👀

aw yeah