It is one of the worst parts of being autistic for me because it draws so much judgment from others and it's not something I can just work on in therapy. I have seriously considered carrying around a little laminated card like in Joker explaining that I am not actually upset.

They don't understand is in my brain I'm going "why am I crying about this, this is so stupid, there's nothing to be upset about, I would like to stop crying now," but I literally cannot. It is a reflexive physical response that I am not in control. And no matter how much I try I cannot stop it.

And the frustrating part of it especially is that no matter how I explain to people I'm not upset, this is just my body having a chemical reaction, they make a huge deal about it. Or they think that I'm seeking attention or whatever. It always makes me look bad. And then it makes me cry more.

It doesn't matter how upset I actually am, whenever I experience a rejection sensitivity episode, my brain floods my body with the chemicals where you cry and I just start uncontrollably crying.

Was going to delete and repost without the typo but I feel it's a very authentic reflection of my current exhaustion level.

As is this nonsensical #ohmary meme I made.

Hey so it's been a year to the day and an audition notice for this bullshit just landed on my feed.

Why is it in 2025 we are still creating theatre that demonizes #autistic people and tells stories about how they are burdens? #actuallyautistic

The brainrot from this game might legitimately be worse than it was for BG3 and that is enormously saying something