Seconded. Maybe with Reed lol

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A smile and words once every blue moon doesn't make everything okay... But why bother with my needs? Just go away... That's what I'm always expected to do... Cause fuck my emotions and needs... Even my parents didn't care about those... I'll be fine on my own... Right? I don't need help apparently.

Easier to just avoid me then anything else... Fuck my happiness... I'll sit here alone with no pleasure, no excitement, nothing. Just treated like a complete background character... I don't need help from loved ones... I don't need happiness.. I don't ever get a say in anything so what is the point?

I guess I'll just go fix myself cause I'm always the broken one and have to be fixed... No one else is having a real problem... No one else gets fussed at... Nah... But me... I'm the problem... I'm the thing that has to be fixed... I'm the garbage... So yeah... I guess I'll fuck off to the dumpster.

Just... Yeah assume I'll always be okay, alone, forgotten... Apparently I can always just go find new people to be in my life. Yeah... No one else has to... Easier to just ignore me and move on... Just forget about me... Everyone always does... It's easier that way... I am just here to occupy space.

Because... I don't deserve anything I guess... Everyone else is so much more important... So they can stay the same... I'll change, I'll submit, I'll never be right or allowed an actual opinion... I'll just shut up and always be wrong... Because fuck me... Thanks for the abandonment, avain and again

Months and I only have barely a handful of actually memories of being with people I care about... Asking for anything was such a bother apparently... No... Easier to never take my side on anything and point out my flaws... If I do the same you yell at me like I'm somehow wrong... I'm always wrong...

And I be no one even cares to ask if I'm actually okay or anything... Not really... They just assume I'll be okay, I'm fine, I don't need help... No one cares how alone I really am... If they did they wouldn't abandon me so frequently and for so long...

Everyone else is just more important than me. It just hurts to feel ostracized so often...

I guess I just need to get used to my existence only being acknowledged everyone month or so... It's not like being alone isn't bad for your health... But I guess that doesn't matter for me... I'm the only person who doesn't need regular human interaction or touch...

Use that to push through and learn! Never a better excuse than one you can make for yourself and have dozens of people witness to keep you on task with yourself 😝

He certainly does 🪨🥰