Omg no problem, tysm!! 💞

Now that you mention it I see him

Apothic dark, it was cheap at work and I'm not picky lol

I usually use an alcohol pad first, then my buff my natural nails, then add fake nail stickies with a drop of glue on top, then finally the fake nails (after I've filed them to fit my nail beds) They usually stay on and don't budge when I do this :)

I can't push through the awkward silences where I'm shoving my suffering as deep down as possible, for my sake and the other person's. It can be so hard to be rational in any way during moments like these, I can only hope that with time and experience I get better at dealing with it.

I'm dying inside?" It's just so severe. I get body temperature changes, hand tremors, I often start crying, curling up in a ball, you name it. I've gotten better at pretending everything is fine in recent years, especially in certain social situations where its crucial that I don't overreact but-

will struggle with my entire life. I thought to post about this here kind of just to vent - I experienced it in an interaction with a new friend today and it got me thinking: "is this something I can work on or am I forever doomed to act as if nothing is wrong in situations like these even while-

I am eternally grateful. I am no longer on medication and haven't been since I was 18 or so, I find it generally unhelpful and I feel like a shell of myself while taking it. I'm not sure if this is something that will become easier to deal with over time or not, it kind of feels like something I-

felt a much greater understanding of who I am as a person and the way my emotions work. Learning what RSD was explained so much about my youth, and my present. My boyfriend of 4 years is often the de-escalator in situations where I'm dealing with RSD - he's really good at it and for that-

a feeling of general unpopularity in any given friend group I became a part of led me to experience extreme grief and self-loathing. With these feelings becoming somewhat consistent, I became rather delusional and impulsive after awhile. Ever since I discovered the concept of RSD I have-

cope with the strong feelings of rejection I was experiencing. I was pretty late in developing close friendships - it took me until middle school and many of those friendships didn't last. Having consistent fights with friends, along with various minor disagreements and-

only to quit her practice without notice not long after (I found out she quit her practice through my therapist at the time) I don't experience hallucinations and the only real cases in which I have been "delusional" were situations when I was a teenager, situations where I just couldn't-

research to try and figure out why she would be convinced I have such a thing - especially at such a young age (most people don't get diagnosed until their early 20s) quite frankly I felt hurt by this diagnosis. It also didn't help that she kind of sprung it on me during one of our appointments-

hormones made my psychiatrist (who met me at the age of 8) think I had a psychotic disorder (specifically schizoaffective disorder) since learning that this was the formal diagnosis she came up with when I was 17 (it was an unspecified mood disorder for years prior) I have done lots of-