time to pass out playing balatro before the feelings show up again

no
cacophony only

i'm going to take a melatonin and play balatro until i pass out

when i'm stressed out, i really need to be doing something at all times or else The Thoughts crash in.

somehow, the 5 minutes between finishing the knitting quota i had today and sitting down to open this canvas was enough time for that to happen

so much for prepping the sketch this morning...

i'm putting this wip away. this started as a hopeful thing for the new year. so much for that.

i made it look more somber because of my feelings but now the heart is gone.

i'll bring this back for when it feels like things really might look up again...

sorry seth i will draw you aurafarming after the break but i really want to finish this so it won't haunt me later

i finished the body today and my hands are pain

tomorrow i am going to not knit at all i am going to clean my apartment and go to hmart and play some video games so my hands can survive the final gauntlet later

ANYWAYS TO REITERATE
I HOPE EVERYONE IS HAVING A GOOD HOLIDAY SEASON

AND STAYING WARM, WHICH IS THE PART THAT I'M NOT DOING RIGHT NOW

LOOK AT HIM GO

wait it was because it was recording off my headset lol. oh well

the art experiment for today has been successful. kind of.

man my mic sucks

so i have to boot off of a usb in order to change my partitions so i have enough / space, in order to do that I have to reboot my computer into windows and and defragment it to safely shrink the windows partition, in order to upgrade my os to run pngtuber software

sure

i have so much completely stuff i want to do this break and for some reason one of those things is make a pngtuber

process