realistically she's long past the point of carin what others think, like you said! but god i get u, her mental cocktail is so relatable and really cool to see ya can pinpoint so many little things from her mannerisms alone?

(the 'don't forget'?? like SHIT.. TRUE..)

i love this post tysm

helne lookoutisde good :)

so.. not something she'd likely employ intentionally, but something she already assigns 'a feeling' to that sam might pick up on and go, 'huh, wait, maybe that's a way she can tell me what she's feeling'.

very cool how brains work!!

yea!! it coming up as a mechanism she's kinda unaware she can use to associate with feelings sounds MEGA on brand for her. (and also very autistic too, assigning feelings to objects.. or flowers, even!)

mask = 'i want to hide/protect others', shears = 'i want to help/care', etc!

rly funny thing about alexithymia is that a way to bypass it that actually works, is associating what you think you feel with something external. i do art, so colours and lines are excellent

but i can imagine hellen just being like. points at knife. she's feeling this today