its really painful to have to accept that the UK is probably like 30% guys exactly like him and theres nothing anyone can do abt it lmao

hes the least curious person ive ever met and has the most black and white view of the world, and takes it extremely personally when anything threatens that view. the emotional labor i have to do in favor of family peace to not make him blow up every time he says smth stupid is tremendous lmao

wait dont look at my bookmarks i meant the (at)did:plcvfghghdgfdhgfgh

excuse me what????

YESSSS the book "why does he do that? inside the minds of angry and controlling men" addresses this!!! a lot of men generally just love existing in that space of willful ignorance and the women in their lives giving them excuses n chances over n over again

ive never had to deal w these problems/types of ppl myself, but wow its such a weak ass defense. "im just venting, why are u scared, its not like im hitting YOU" while theyre going insane breaking shit n screaming . like u must be fucking joking rn. esp w/ gender dynamics at play here....... wtf

at the same time if my friend is talking to me abt smth and they start adding a bunch of exclaimers im like. Yes babe ik!!!! ik u dont mean it literally!!!! dw!!!!

i thikn im just suspicious of super emotionally charged online speech

thank you!!!! i really appreciate it 🥰

thats fucked up???? the damage mite not show up right away but after decades it definitely creates problems 😭😭😭😭 fuckin useless doctors i s2g

thankfully none of this, not even having to read nutrition labels n do some calorie counting, has triggered restrictive ED urges so far. i think i built some resistance a few month ago when i decided to go off red meat entirely, it made my thoughts a bit ED-y for a while but eventually leveled out

i guess i gotta actually eat real meals at regular intervals huh??? im also trying to find a way to add more fiber + protein to my diet, n have snacking options that arent chips/candy/etc. my meals are def way too carb based but one thing at a time

i find the sensation of being actually full uncomfy so i tend to just eat a "real" meal a couple times a day n snack on various treats throughout the day. i def unconsciously avoid having meals until my stomach has been growling for hours, which keeps me craving for chips, chocolate, candy etc

this hasnt been a lifelong thing for me yet so i feel somewhat hopeful, the thought of having it constantly just as a genetic thing sounds so stressful n awful. im sorry :(((( have you been on meds for it?

this would all be easier if i didnt also suffer from SEVERE PATHOLOGICAL DEMAND AVOIDANCE which makes regular exercise almost impossible in the long term. i still need to try but the pressure from PDA can be completely immobilizing to me

i was so stressed yesterday i didnt take my vyvanse in the morning n it did lower my blood pressure somewhat, but it also took me like 3hrs to get up, i spent most of the day in bed, didnt paint/draw or shower, n didnt enjoy playing video games n just kept thinking abt not getting to eat food