Or the exact opposite and I just wind up withdrawing again and leaving this place hanging but. It has been largely cathartic but also still spooky

Like crippling looking back on my actions/conversations and going "Oh wait I'm the annoying person"

This is also just generally true, I feel like I've forgotten how to socialize and I need to dig myself out this asocial hole I'm in

Or will keep me in a largely acceptable range I should say, ain't ditching this already

I think the ultimately one sided nature of the place here will perhaps keep me just uncomfy enough perhaps but I obviously need to talk to more people/get in more uh open spaces

I guess this is also like at least half the point of the account

ESPECIALLY if I’m horny which I almost always am to a greater or lesser degree so