Whatever they coated Build with A) does not take to sanding and B) does not take to panel liner cleanup. I'm gonna hafta be careful. Also, 90% of the time I spent building Build's head was just getting the reflective sticker on the back of the left eye. Maybe should've used the Molotow.

Side sleeper can't really lay on either side anymore. And it hurts my back to sleep on my back. So I'm not sure what to do to improve rest.

Things'll get worse before they get better. I'm gonna give myself at least 1 more hour awake before turning in. Tomorrow's another day...

I dunno, man. I just wish I was elsewhere, near friends. Being so far away from everyone hurts, that's all. I don't know how I would -get- there, but I'd figure something out. I should turn in. I haven't slept well lately and that's probably part of it, too.

I'm here to get us through this, and that's what I'll do. But I'm still just one broken person. I have my limits like anyone else. Hopefully I'll be able to tank whatever life throws at me. But I can't start trying to get Gwen back up here while all of this is happening and that's also frustrating.

I'm exhausted and feeling blah, and I don't want to sleep because tomorrow's going to be stressful and long, too.

'tomorrow's going to be stressful' is s long-term problem right now, actually. I wish I had a way to just magically make things better. Or at least not horrifically rough.

Feeling and being so isolated from all the people I know is painful. Our body is steadily falling apart physically and the mental strain of all our bad luck periodically manifesting and crashing into us over and over isn't helping matters.

I hate not having a solution to my problems. I feel like I'm doing us all a disservice by -not- being able to handle everything, at least on the surface. The joys of being human, I guess. I'm not sad, per se. This isn't really depression. It's just loneliness. Maybe that's the same thing? I dunno.

I think a lot of the problem could be solved by just... y'know, 'going and hanging out with friends.' But all my friends are either half a country or half a world away. It's really frustrating. A long cooldown hug would do a lot of good for me, I think. It's the solitude that's eating me.

I've seen interesting stands from other companies. I need to just try some of those. The Good Smile Simple Stand comes in a three-pack and I've heard good things. May be about to try that. Thankfully I do have a clear stand, but I was kinda hoping to use that for posing purposes, not for full use.

I've got ideas of how to fix it, but it's fucking stupid that I need to to begin with.

I swear to god, maybe building model kits just isn't for me. There's been something that's gone wrong on just about every single build I've tried, most of them catastrophic.

Why on EARTH did Bandai make the DEFAULT the one that ISN'T apparently used by ALL of their model kits?! It's not like this is an older stand design, these are fairly recent! If you don't know the difference, you're just gonna go with the default, ASSUMING BANDAI KNEW WHAT THEY WERE DOING! #Gunpla

Why would you E V E R have F I V E different heads you could put on an Action Base and then punish you if you didn't know ahead of fucking time which you would need, because you can't just swap the damn things out?! I'm never getting the AB7 again. Absolute fucking scam. #Gunpla

Also, my mistake. It was the AB7, not the 6. Damn things look identical at a glance to me. This is fucking stupid. Why the hell would you design anything in such a way that if you fucked up assembly, you just had to throw the damn things away because disassembly was actually impossible?! #Gunpla

I finally looked up a video and now I guess I have to just throw the stands away. Because if you use the DEFAULT PEG it suggests you to use in the main body of the instructions, you're fucked, because there's no disassembling it to change it out. Fuck this. Wasted money. Great. Rad. #Gunpla

First off, they don't explain the different pegs at all, they just go "EHHH, PICK ONE O' FIVE!" and then give no instructions beyond that. But it doesn't matter. What do you MEAN 10 and 11 go together? No they don't! The peg and hole don't even REACH one another! This is fucking stupid. #Gunpla

And a link to the thread so you can see the images in the order I did.

www.reddit.com/r/StreetFigh...

I put Episode 7 on par with Episode 2. Revenge of the Sith is the best one I've seen since logging them on Letterboxd.

Ep 1 would've been a 1 1/2 star, New Hope would've been a 3 1/2, Empire a 4, and Jedi a 3. I'll go back and rank those sooner or later. For completion's sake.