but if i go by his time its 1:45 so i'll use that as an excuse

i feel like ppl are just starting to give men that title solely bc theyre men like no maam i think you are actually the provider of the house and that is okay

is he tending to some crops that i don't know about?

how do you not get déjà vu repeating bar for bar what i already said

like you couldve known this already if you had listened to me idk

to finally get what you want then have it yanked away...

ig it would be nice if i at least wasnt scared of interacting with my own immediate family like i feel like i lost that ability too and always just come off bitchy no matter how hard i try

like idk what i was thinking i feel like i bit off more than i could chew from the start. i shouldve known that i wouldnt be able to keep it up long term and it wouldve been easier to never start so i wouldnt realize how much im regressing socially. but you never think youre gonna backslide

like i cant believe that a year ago i felt confident posting my thoughts and interacting with people and making friends and i dont even necessarily want to go back to that bc in my current mindset it feels so absurd. if anything i feel embarrassed for ever putting myself out there

its like do i wanna be losing my mind from lack of sleep or losing my mind from loneliness it has to be one

"we're both grown adults" THAT MAKES IT WORSE???

like genuinely how am i supposed to react