Now I am dating a guy who’s kind, safe and supportive, but I idk why on emotional level it feels so boring with him! My brain used to be in an emotional roller coaster for so long and now I can’t function on a normal level

My jawline is too sharp. I have a big forehead. My face is too strong-looking. I have an adams apple and my voice dropped during puberty. Even my clit is big; I've never had sex before, but I fear the day I finally get a boyfriend and he sees it. Sometimes I wonder if I was supposed to be born a guy