Nobody warned me when i was 14 on wattpad that you stay a fandom nerd for life, you just get a job and a busy schedule that gets in the way

LIKE THE CURRENT DRAFT IS SO BORING OKAY. She suggested i add a drinking game and i was like FUCKKKK THAT MAKES THIS SO MUCH MORE FUN. And now i want to switch the pov to zoey on top of it and its like. Am i ever going to get this out before halloween. Yes but ill probably die getting there

FUCK YESSSS!!!! WE MISSED YOU NDUH!!!!!!!!!!! OUR PIONEER IN TOXIC TRANSCESTUOUS YURI!!!!!!!!!!!

It makes me sick. I don't know. I have time to choose, but it's running out. I'm paralyzed. There's no word for what I'm feeling but "unbearable". And I... I don't know, I want to do the right thing. Whatever that is. I really, really hope I do the right thing.

And I'm supposed to help that? Help the very thing killing us so I can have a full stomach every night? I don't know what to do. Everything I'm working for, everything ive done to myself for the sake of my family... i finally understand the cost of it all. The real cost. Of human lives.

Whats the point of me surviving if I'm profiting off the exploitation of my people? I don't want to lick the rich's boots to beg for delusions of grandeur. We can't eat money. They squeeze everything we have out of our human souls so their satin sheets are a little more comfortable.

If I do what's right—really right—for the people in my country, then we'll struggle. My family. My pets. My lover. My loans are insane, I'm living dollar to dollar, they'll eat me alive if I dont get a high paying job. I can escape this pain, but is it even right?

I might be sounding crazy lol. Really grappling with getting a job these days. I'm staring down the barrel of a big choice with my degree. I want to—need to—protect my family, but at what cost? To make money I have to dedicate my time to something evil.

Humans arent meant to do it alone, I think. Individualism, solitude, monarchy, hatred, we're in a self-made hell creating a "them" and an "us". And yet its hard not to, when you love someone so much you'd do anything for them. "You and Me", it kills us. It needs to be "us", or we die.

I like it like this better. I think its more implicational of how it kills you. How unbearable all of this is.

What's the point of power when you're staring down collapse? There's a finality, an end, crushing you, slowly. I question if its worth it.

Grabbed this out of like, a bin of random stickers, and its just kind of staying with me. Did some googling, most of the other quotes end with "endure feelings no one else can", in like this #power #success kind of way.

rumi can lift the heaviest weights of the three despite going to the gym the least! Mira exercises the most and Zoey is the fastest runner—those two go to the gym together a few times a week—but Rumi does a LOT of heavy lifting on sets/stress cleaning insane places around the house

Mira loves being cuddly, shes just awkward and uncomfortable with/unused to gentle affection. She almost never initiates anything like that, and if it does its SO awkward... it gets easier for her the longer zoey is in her life, though.

Like, im talking zoey had an amino account, she was that into it. She sends mira links to videos all the time but Mira ends up just watching them with her on the couch.

2. MIRA IS OFFLINE!!! Did you know she never pulls out her phone ONCE in the whole movie? Girl is NOT brainrotted. Zoey, on the other hand, is a tiktok doomscroller + has handles for everything, while Rumi is on insta

I think the "colors inside her head" being a softer side of herself shes uncomfortable with makes a loooot of sense. Hence why zoemira's dynamic is so good, they fundamentally understand each other AND both have something to teach each other