>said by the guy that goes THAT'S A PIETA REFERENCE I LOVE ME A PIETA REFERENCE when there's a pieta reference every time.

it was easier, knowing someone was going through the exact same things.
but i forget. i forget she didn't feel about them the same way. i forget she wasn't just my crutch, but was a person of her own.
i forget we argued and fought.
and if she was. really still here. we still would.

"if you spent all your life on something that has died
you are not alive and that can't be your life
love what you can till it dies
and let it fly away"

i wonder what we'd grow up into together.
and i keep seeing this entangled mass of flesh and limbs.
it wasn't healthy. but it was a way to live. and one of us lived, i guess.

i just wish. i could talk to her again. outside of my own head.

it's difficult thinking about this.
i keep thinking about the conflicting ideas about how devoting your life to someone who's dead is a waste of your own life.
and how the only way the dead can live on is if the living remember.

it's our birthday tomorrow.
no matter what i feel... it happened.

i wish i could sew at work when it's quiet...

in addition to whatever i manage to scrounge up for money, yes.
hopefully it's not as bad as i am expecting, but i think this vacation is gonna be unpaid ☠️

supernatural or metaphysical conspiracies are so unnecessary to me. however "1% screwing you over"... i am seated.