Rotten slop
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Starting off 2026 hating myself even more than last year 💔
January 3, 2026 at 9:37 AM
Starting off 2026 hating myself even more than last year 💔
...Sorry for my last post, I was just.. At a really low point. I'm fine now, and I'm sorry for any distress I've caused.
December 16, 2025 at 8:18 PM
...Sorry for my last post, I was just.. At a really low point. I'm fine now, and I'm sorry for any distress I've caused.
...I know what sweetheart said but..
...god I fucking hate myself. I'm fucking pathetic. I can't even think straight for one fucking night. I should have just succeeded the last few times.
Maybe I should just. Try again. And maybe I'll actually fucking succeed.
...god I fucking hate myself. I'm fucking pathetic. I can't even think straight for one fucking night. I should have just succeeded the last few times.
Maybe I should just. Try again. And maybe I'll actually fucking succeed.
December 16, 2025 at 4:40 AM
...I know what sweetheart said but..
...god I fucking hate myself. I'm fucking pathetic. I can't even think straight for one fucking night. I should have just succeeded the last few times.
Maybe I should just. Try again. And maybe I'll actually fucking succeed.
...god I fucking hate myself. I'm fucking pathetic. I can't even think straight for one fucking night. I should have just succeeded the last few times.
Maybe I should just. Try again. And maybe I'll actually fucking succeed.
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October 19, 2025 at 9:55 AM
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I feel like I'm screaming into the void with every post
It doesn't help my thoughts, but what does is helping others feel like they aren't screaming into the void to
..its not by much, but it helps knowing they know their voice is heard
It doesn't help my thoughts, but what does is helping others feel like they aren't screaming into the void to
..its not by much, but it helps knowing they know their voice is heard
December 13, 2025 at 5:30 AM
I feel like I'm screaming into the void with every post
It doesn't help my thoughts, but what does is helping others feel like they aren't screaming into the void to
..its not by much, but it helps knowing they know their voice is heard
It doesn't help my thoughts, but what does is helping others feel like they aren't screaming into the void to
..its not by much, but it helps knowing they know their voice is heard
Oh.. Suicidal thoughts are back again..
So it wasn't temporary...
...fuck.
So it wasn't temporary...
...fuck.
December 10, 2025 at 6:40 AM
Oh.. Suicidal thoughts are back again..
So it wasn't temporary...
...fuck.
So it wasn't temporary...
...fuck.
I feel like I've come full circle
That all my progress to becoming better mentally just
Went down the drain
That all my progress to becoming better mentally just
Went down the drain
December 9, 2025 at 5:18 AM
I feel like I've come full circle
That all my progress to becoming better mentally just
Went down the drain
That all my progress to becoming better mentally just
Went down the drain
Why am k so fucjing depensant
Why csnt I fucntion on my own snumore
Why csnt I fucntion on my own snumore
December 6, 2025 at 7:56 AM
Why am k so fucjing depensant
Why csnt I fucntion on my own snumore
Why csnt I fucntion on my own snumore
I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself
December 6, 2025 at 7:54 AM
I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself I fucking hate myself
...bad thoughts..
sweetheart isn't awake to comfort me..
sweetheart isn't awake to comfort me..
December 6, 2025 at 7:42 AM
...bad thoughts..
sweetheart isn't awake to comfort me..
sweetheart isn't awake to comfort me..
Really love when someone I love gets mad at me because of the result of their failure to communicate.
They just go "hmph." And wait for me to play 20 questions with them to find out what kind of upset they are.
They just go "hmph." And wait for me to play 20 questions with them to find out what kind of upset they are.
December 5, 2025 at 4:00 AM
Really love when someone I love gets mad at me because of the result of their failure to communicate.
They just go "hmph." And wait for me to play 20 questions with them to find out what kind of upset they are.
They just go "hmph." And wait for me to play 20 questions with them to find out what kind of upset they are.
Today I felt.. Unnaturally tired. I don't like that.
December 2, 2025 at 5:30 AM
Today I felt.. Unnaturally tired. I don't like that.
I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay
December 1, 2025 at 3:49 AM
I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay I am not okay
Where has my imagination gone
November 28, 2025 at 2:34 AM
Where has my imagination gone
I honestly expect more from life, I don't know why.
I'm aware I'm not going to get what I expect.
..But it still disappoints me when I don't.
I'm aware I'm not going to get what I expect.
..But it still disappoints me when I don't.
November 26, 2025 at 5:41 PM
I honestly expect more from life, I don't know why.
I'm aware I'm not going to get what I expect.
..But it still disappoints me when I don't.
I'm aware I'm not going to get what I expect.
..But it still disappoints me when I don't.
Chain me up. Make me starve. Tear my eyes.
Spill my guts. Lather with salt. Abuse me.
Watch me cry. Make me weep. Observe me plead.
No matter what. Make me suffer. Give me pain.
Anything but to kill me.
Spill my guts. Lather with salt. Abuse me.
Watch me cry. Make me weep. Observe me plead.
No matter what. Make me suffer. Give me pain.
Anything but to kill me.
November 11, 2025 at 4:14 AM
Chain me up. Make me starve. Tear my eyes.
Spill my guts. Lather with salt. Abuse me.
Watch me cry. Make me weep. Observe me plead.
No matter what. Make me suffer. Give me pain.
Anything but to kill me.
Spill my guts. Lather with salt. Abuse me.
Watch me cry. Make me weep. Observe me plead.
No matter what. Make me suffer. Give me pain.
Anything but to kill me.
Thank you everyone! I feel a lot better now.. Hopefully I won't need to do this again!
...Could I get some words of encouragement from everyone?
...I've been feeling really upset lately..
...I've been feeling really upset lately..
October 15, 2025 at 7:30 PM
Thank you everyone! I feel a lot better now.. Hopefully I won't need to do this again!
...Could I get some words of encouragement from everyone?
...I've been feeling really upset lately..
...I've been feeling really upset lately..
October 15, 2025 at 3:26 AM
...Could I get some words of encouragement from everyone?
...I've been feeling really upset lately..
...I've been feeling really upset lately..
I genuinely teared up earlier. I didn't think that when I came back, that I'd be missed so much... It boosted my confidence, that's for sure.
October 11, 2025 at 3:29 PM
I genuinely teared up earlier. I didn't think that when I came back, that I'd be missed so much... It boosted my confidence, that's for sure.
There's one thing I'm scared of more than anything and that's hurting the people I love
I don't ever want do, and when I do, I just go into an anxiety meltdown
Thinking straight becomes difficult, I can't control my tears, my speaking goes floppy, etc..
I don't ever want to hurt Shio. I'm scared to.
I don't ever want do, and when I do, I just go into an anxiety meltdown
Thinking straight becomes difficult, I can't control my tears, my speaking goes floppy, etc..
I don't ever want to hurt Shio. I'm scared to.
October 1, 2025 at 10:47 AM
There's one thing I'm scared of more than anything and that's hurting the people I love
I don't ever want do, and when I do, I just go into an anxiety meltdown
Thinking straight becomes difficult, I can't control my tears, my speaking goes floppy, etc..
I don't ever want to hurt Shio. I'm scared to.
I don't ever want do, and when I do, I just go into an anxiety meltdown
Thinking straight becomes difficult, I can't control my tears, my speaking goes floppy, etc..
I don't ever want to hurt Shio. I'm scared to.
I never stopped to think about the fact that I enjoy suffering
I get joy from pain, physical or mental
I fucking LOVE suffering and I can't help it
Guess I really am a masochist after all
I get joy from pain, physical or mental
I fucking LOVE suffering and I can't help it
Guess I really am a masochist after all
September 28, 2025 at 6:51 AM
I never stopped to think about the fact that I enjoy suffering
I get joy from pain, physical or mental
I fucking LOVE suffering and I can't help it
Guess I really am a masochist after all
I get joy from pain, physical or mental
I fucking LOVE suffering and I can't help it
Guess I really am a masochist after all
I'm fine everything's fine I'm okay I'm fine hehehhehahahhahahahahahahahhahahaahahahahaa
September 28, 2025 at 6:45 AM
I'm fine everything's fine I'm okay I'm fine hehehhehahahhahahahahahahahhahahaahahahahaa
God feeling like shit again..
WHY?? NOTHING BAD HAPPENED TODAY.
WHY DO I FEEL LIKE SHIT AGAIN??
I HATE MYSELF FOR EVERY REASON.
WHY CAN'T I STOP FEELING LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG AGAIN?
WHY?? NOTHING BAD HAPPENED TODAY.
WHY DO I FEEL LIKE SHIT AGAIN??
I HATE MYSELF FOR EVERY REASON.
WHY CAN'T I STOP FEELING LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG AGAIN?
September 25, 2025 at 3:26 AM
God feeling like shit again..
WHY?? NOTHING BAD HAPPENED TODAY.
WHY DO I FEEL LIKE SHIT AGAIN??
I HATE MYSELF FOR EVERY REASON.
WHY CAN'T I STOP FEELING LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG AGAIN?
WHY?? NOTHING BAD HAPPENED TODAY.
WHY DO I FEEL LIKE SHIT AGAIN??
I HATE MYSELF FOR EVERY REASON.
WHY CAN'T I STOP FEELING LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG AGAIN?
I woke up feeling like utter shit.
I felt woozy, and I felt like I was going to vomit my entire body's worth of mass.
I didn't know to school today because I already get carsick easy. The last thing I need is to already feel like I'm gonna throw up.
I felt woozy, and I felt like I was going to vomit my entire body's worth of mass.
I didn't know to school today because I already get carsick easy. The last thing I need is to already feel like I'm gonna throw up.
September 24, 2025 at 1:38 PM
I woke up feeling like utter shit.
I felt woozy, and I felt like I was going to vomit my entire body's worth of mass.
I didn't know to school today because I already get carsick easy. The last thing I need is to already feel like I'm gonna throw up.
I felt woozy, and I felt like I was going to vomit my entire body's worth of mass.
I didn't know to school today because I already get carsick easy. The last thing I need is to already feel like I'm gonna throw up.
GOD, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??
I WANT TO LIVE A NORMAL LIFE SO BADLY!
I WANT TO BE NEUROTYOICAL!
I'M SICK OF BEING ME. I'M SICK OF BEING WHO I AM AND I CAN'T CHANGE IT!
I HATE EVERY PART ABOUT MYSELF!
I WISH I WASN'T AUTISTIC OR ADD OR WHATEVER THE FUCK ELSE I WSS DIAGNOSED WITH!
I WANT TO LIVE A NORMAL LIFE SO BADLY!
I WANT TO BE NEUROTYOICAL!
I'M SICK OF BEING ME. I'M SICK OF BEING WHO I AM AND I CAN'T CHANGE IT!
I HATE EVERY PART ABOUT MYSELF!
I WISH I WASN'T AUTISTIC OR ADD OR WHATEVER THE FUCK ELSE I WSS DIAGNOSED WITH!
September 24, 2025 at 6:46 AM
GOD, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??
I WANT TO LIVE A NORMAL LIFE SO BADLY!
I WANT TO BE NEUROTYOICAL!
I'M SICK OF BEING ME. I'M SICK OF BEING WHO I AM AND I CAN'T CHANGE IT!
I HATE EVERY PART ABOUT MYSELF!
I WISH I WASN'T AUTISTIC OR ADD OR WHATEVER THE FUCK ELSE I WSS DIAGNOSED WITH!
I WANT TO LIVE A NORMAL LIFE SO BADLY!
I WANT TO BE NEUROTYOICAL!
I'M SICK OF BEING ME. I'M SICK OF BEING WHO I AM AND I CAN'T CHANGE IT!
I HATE EVERY PART ABOUT MYSELF!
I WISH I WASN'T AUTISTIC OR ADD OR WHATEVER THE FUCK ELSE I WSS DIAGNOSED WITH!