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spam + doodle scrap acc i will forget it exists until i dont lol, sometimes 🔞
spam + doodle scrap acc i will forget it exists until i dont lol, sometimes 🔞
Bro I gotta start working out at the library
December 25, 2025 at 11:01 PM
Bro I gotta start working out at the library
Looking more and more likely as the second most unemployed-adjacent person in my family I’m gonna need to sub in as a carer for one of my fam not long into the new year which is gonna be a rough thing to try and plan around
December 15, 2025 at 1:21 PM
Looking more and more likely as the second most unemployed-adjacent person in my family I’m gonna need to sub in as a carer for one of my fam not long into the new year which is gonna be a rough thing to try and plan around
Update it doesn’t look good but at least I feel like a faggot again lol
vaguely inebriated stressed as balls abt life feeling vulnerble lately lowkey dysphoric/morphic af strongly consideringat 2:30am giving myself a haircut in a bathroom w/ a broken overhead light will cosnider actions for about 10 minutes then update in the cold morning hours
November 28, 2025 at 10:18 PM
Update it doesn’t look good but at least I feel like a faggot again lol
vaguely inebriated stressed as balls abt life feeling vulnerble lately lowkey dysphoric/morphic af strongly consideringat 2:30am giving myself a haircut in a bathroom w/ a broken overhead light will cosnider actions for about 10 minutes then update in the cold morning hours
November 28, 2025 at 2:40 AM
vaguely inebriated stressed as balls abt life feeling vulnerble lately lowkey dysphoric/morphic af strongly consideringat 2:30am giving myself a haircut in a bathroom w/ a broken overhead light will cosnider actions for about 10 minutes then update in the cold morning hours
Trying to tackle my silent hill demons then breaking one open to discover a bigger, worse silent hill demon inside 🥀
November 24, 2025 at 12:38 AM
Trying to tackle my silent hill demons then breaking one open to discover a bigger, worse silent hill demon inside 🥀
screenshots of despair
November 19, 2025 at 6:24 PM
screenshots of despair
Going to bed at 7:30 waking up at 4pm my sleeping so cooked bro
November 19, 2025 at 4:09 PM
Going to bed at 7:30 waking up at 4pm my sleeping so cooked bro
Barely just woke up finding out one of my fam is getting sent out to hospital with a laundry list of problems (they’re elderly) gotta be honest this is already sapping my will to do much of anything today
November 14, 2025 at 12:15 PM
Barely just woke up finding out one of my fam is getting sent out to hospital with a laundry list of problems (they’re elderly) gotta be honest this is already sapping my will to do much of anything today
whatever battling the demons by going back to making softcore porn refs in the sims
November 3, 2025 at 11:56 PM
whatever battling the demons by going back to making softcore porn refs in the sims
trying to remake my comm post bc my hours are p heavy slashed for at least the next few months and man rationally ik this is probs just a temp melancholia of the night but idk i feel like i have not made any personal art the last few months ive actually felt proud of 😞🚬
November 3, 2025 at 11:51 PM
trying to remake my comm post bc my hours are p heavy slashed for at least the next few months and man rationally ik this is probs just a temp melancholia of the night but idk i feel like i have not made any personal art the last few months ive actually felt proud of 😞🚬
Finally cracked and pirated a shitload of sims 4 so I can finally live out my the dream of mordred being a homeless goth squatting in the basement of a burnt out building. The only thing standing in my way is every cc creator seemingly being allergic to making half decent side bang hairstyle
October 30, 2025 at 10:10 PM
Finally cracked and pirated a shitload of sims 4 so I can finally live out my the dream of mordred being a homeless goth squatting in the basement of a burnt out building. The only thing standing in my way is every cc creator seemingly being allergic to making half decent side bang hairstyle
sorry ik i made this side acc for porn but all i do is use it as a journal and complain lol 🥀 can you all just imagine mordred getting railed instead for the time being. theatre of the mind is a valuable thing
October 23, 2025 at 3:16 PM
sorry ik i made this side acc for porn but all i do is use it as a journal and complain lol 🥀 can you all just imagine mordred getting railed instead for the time being. theatre of the mind is a valuable thing
omg literally me hashtagFatigue hashtagSleepy hashtagImTired hashtagCrashOut
October 23, 2025 at 3:08 PM
omg literally me hashtagFatigue hashtagSleepy hashtagImTired hashtagCrashOut
kamdred break.. ik i draw him as a catboy bc thats his temperment + a kitty is a good pairing for him + i like nyanya boys but cna you take a moment to imagine him surrounded by excited dogs slobbering all over his face
October 20, 2025 at 4:31 AM
kamdred break.. ik i draw him as a catboy bc thats his temperment + a kitty is a good pairing for him + i like nyanya boys but cna you take a moment to imagine him surrounded by excited dogs slobbering all over his face
i would love nothing more than to jsut sit aorund and do kamd full time but unfortunately the economic consequences of such emotional fulfilment would be devastating
October 20, 2025 at 2:38 AM
i would love nothing more than to jsut sit aorund and do kamd full time but unfortunately the economic consequences of such emotional fulfilment would be devastating
if i get out of this alive i can draw oral sex as a reward hashtagManifesting
October 20, 2025 at 2:32 AM
if i get out of this alive i can draw oral sex as a reward hashtagManifesting
coping with putting myself on a stupid bad work cycle by drawing memes anyway get it cwyllog chan
October 20, 2025 at 2:31 AM
coping with putting myself on a stupid bad work cycle by drawing memes anyway get it cwyllog chan
Go to bed at ass oclock-> accidentally wake up early and only get 4 hrs sleep -> get insanely tired early in the evening -> get excited abt fixing sleep schedule -> go to bed -> body gets tricked into taking 1hr nap -> stuck awake again until ass oclock. Gen Q am I suffering some kind of curse?
October 17, 2025 at 3:58 AM
Go to bed at ass oclock-> accidentally wake up early and only get 4 hrs sleep -> get insanely tired early in the evening -> get excited abt fixing sleep schedule -> go to bed -> body gets tricked into taking 1hr nap -> stuck awake again until ass oclock. Gen Q am I suffering some kind of curse?
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I think it should remain possible to work professionally on video games
October 15, 2025 at 9:26 PM
I think it should remain possible to work professionally on video games
probs taking a break from tumblr (💀) so was queuing up art + found this again and ouh i got nostaglic...this drawing on the right there is when i first decided to make mordred trans i explictly remember drawing a cis mans chest then erasing it bc i wanted him to look more like me...smh corny ass 🥹
October 16, 2025 at 2:08 PM
probs taking a break from tumblr (💀) so was queuing up art + found this again and ouh i got nostaglic...this drawing on the right there is when i first decided to make mordred trans i explictly remember drawing a cis mans chest then erasing it bc i wanted him to look more like me...smh corny ass 🥹
in my heart i knwo personal violence is wrong but everyday the lord tests me just that little bit harder each time 😑🚬
October 14, 2025 at 3:55 PM
in my heart i knwo personal violence is wrong but everyday the lord tests me just that little bit harder each time 😑🚬
readint he mgs2 script for kamdred nutrients + this pargraph is tkaing me out bro was hard af writing this out
October 12, 2025 at 10:42 PM
readint he mgs2 script for kamdred nutrients + this pargraph is tkaing me out bro was hard af writing this out
Only forcing myself to stop and lie in bed right now just bc I don’t want to deal with the embarrassment of saying goodnight to someone then 6 hrs later still being awake when their alarm goes off. God grant me one power nap and I can be one your strongest soldier when I wake back up
October 8, 2025 at 5:35 AM
Only forcing myself to stop and lie in bed right now just bc I don’t want to deal with the embarrassment of saying goodnight to someone then 6 hrs later still being awake when their alarm goes off. God grant me one power nap and I can be one your strongest soldier when I wake back up
6k words written so far dedicated to outlining kamdred backstory that I’m 90% sure that only like 1/3 will ever be materially reverent to the visible kamd narrative. my brother at this point it’d be easier to just write a book
October 8, 2025 at 5:32 AM
6k words written so far dedicated to outlining kamdred backstory that I’m 90% sure that only like 1/3 will ever be materially reverent to the visible kamd narrative. my brother at this point it’d be easier to just write a book
hours are getting cut down after oct which is obviously scary bc money + job hunt is fruitless rn but i think if im being brutally honest it might be needed like my work/life/health balance has been a nightmare the last while im like going to bed at 5am and waking up at 11:30. like. -___-💤
October 6, 2025 at 2:38 AM
hours are getting cut down after oct which is obviously scary bc money + job hunt is fruitless rn but i think if im being brutally honest it might be needed like my work/life/health balance has been a nightmare the last while im like going to bed at 5am and waking up at 11:30. like. -___-💤