I'm eating less again, I'm worrying myself now. This happened before and I try to push myself to eat but I can't eat to much or I get tired or wanna throw up, I'm hoping I'm just not feeling well but if it's more than that I don't know what to do

Everything matters, each thing you do has an effect or consequence. Even if meaningless, the fact things happen is so cool I just wish it made me happy

The most loving thing is when your partner takes your last breath, I want my last breath to escape into a kiss as I die out

I also think dysphoria has affected me more than I realize, I mean maybe I do care how others refer to me

I think life is saying I should move on from certain things, honestly I do need to. But I'm kind of scared, what will happen? I'm already bad enough at making friends so losing some could be scary