I know you don't know me well, but my heart goes out to you. I've experienced something similar with a dire ending. My mother got Alzheimers, and passed in a home from related causes, and this was after loding my father to cancer. You're in my prayers for sure. And I'm open if you need to talk.

So, would it just get blown away or would it be like a shotgun blast right into one's face and mouth, so it all hits full force. One you're responding to deer fart, but then you're also starting to see brilliant colors or hallucinating or whatever reaction depending on the drug, and intensely.

Those are super cute ^.^

And I'm ending the year with a sudden and intense creativity and drawing energy. I feel productive as the new year comes in.
I may do some more drawing later tonight even, before the ball drops. Maybe something naughty, and more than likely full of feet and weird stuff :)