*course*

Well that was my little memory before bed. I actually was just looking at beadwork and saw a bunch of horses on a regalia. And it reminded me of Joy Harjo ❤️🐴 Fun fact, I’m actually beading my horse set rn too!

Sometimes good learning can mean to take your time. Which also sucks when measured by the ticking time clock and depleting funds from colonized/western education. Ahhh…

I guess the moral of the story here is to always collaborate and get your facts checked lmao!! And can’t emphasize enough to do *extensive* research bc I def tried cutting corners on my work bc of my coarse load and how many jobs I was working.

It got a little worse. Bc in class after reading the book, I still hadn’t put two and two together. Luckily, a colleague/acquaintance helped me piece it together. But omg it was embarrassing to find out in class like that 🙈sigh…

Gosh…I must have been really bad at my researching at the time bc tell my why I found Hulk Hogan’s wife and was trying to see if she was Cherokee or something. Which kind of made sense to me bc Mean Spirit was set in Oklahoma. So for a second I was really getting it twisted 😭😩 omg

I was reminiscing on some pieces I had read in high school. Like “She Had Some Horses” by Joy Harjo. And I remember reading Mean Spirit by Linda Hogan. I hadn’t heard of her when I started reading her works. And I was trying to research her more to understand.

Here is their website!! 💖

www.poyomiart.com?fbclid=PAZXh...

I also have a spot where I can see my fav stickers by Poyomi I got years ago 💖

So many good things coming together 💖🪶

My thread is strong, but my will is stronger 💪🏽💖

☑️ Resisted the Beader’s #1 Temptation: Keeping it.

Grief has been such a good friend to me in this decade, but I think I’m ready to leave the comfort cave 💖

And I suppose that’s what our oppressors take advantage of most, when we’re stranded and divided. When our own people have internalized and perpetuated what we need to leave.

Le sigh. *hugs*🫂

Heavy footnote that I am trying to cope with everything going on. I think about how I’ve neglected my relationships to family and community when it’s been difficult to reason with them/set boundaries/call in&out their problematic behavior.

I never reached out to find more community since.