- brought him home long before now, but I wasn’t strong enough. I hate admitting that out loud or admitting that at all. this is a lot at once, but if you’re sure you’re OK with it then full speed ahead, baby

[i’d be a liar if I said, I didn’t love the quick kiss as we drove. We weren’t married yet, but honestly, it felt like he was my husband. He was saying all the right things at the right time.] I’m very happy with you baby. I’m just adjusting to the idea that my son is coming home. I should have -

I could get used to this

[cuddles into you, getting comfortable for the rest of the night]

you promise?

All yours

- like my life is a constant string of fuck ups lately. dad likes you because he said I sounded happy and I haven’t sounded happy since I found out I was pregnant with Ronnie.

[When we were at a stop light , I exhaled because I knew he was right.] I know I’m just kind of unsure about it since I never got to be a mom to Ronnie. Junior was different. He wasn’t mine so I didn’t have him all the time. Even when Lexi was in the hospital he was with Pedro not me. I feel -

[giggles climbing into your lap]

- so we may need to definitely consult Belle. I’m worried that he may be underweight or something like that. Speaking from my experience, junior and Gracie were both bigger than he is at that age. i’m concerned about that so I might sound a little paranoid.

[I returned the wink, smiling softly] I know you won’t be like that. Thank God because I think your best friend and my best friend would beat your ass together. I don’t know that much about my son. How pathetic is that? My sister never told me if she took him to the doctor or anything like that. -

- didn’t want him. I think he’s seen him twice if that.

- double check that when we get home. I just want him safe, so does my dad. If either one of us had any idea that it would come to this I would have done something better for him. As long as you’re sure that you’re in no matter what I would like him to have your last name. My lovely ex-husband -

[The more I thought about it the more I realized Vinny was right.] I should probably go to my apartment at some point to pick up my divorce papers to make sure he doesn’t start anything and probably the kids birth certificates just in case as far as I know nothing was legally filed that you can -

- was trying my best to make it work despite everything.