Maybe ADHD meds will fix me! At least a little! Who fucking knows

Just can't help feeling like I'm stupid and annoying and people around me are slowly starting to realise and distance themselves

And I mean I wouldn't even blame anyone, I have to live with how my brain just Doesn't Work and let me tell you it fucking sucks

🔞 forgot abt this here's more archive
first 2 are fanart for this fic: archiveofourown.org/works/57047779

🔞 this was kind of a cycle but 3rd is specifically fanart for this: archiveofourown.org/works/58449070

Things ARE better for me, since immigrating my life quality has just massively gone up, so I feel like a complete piece of shit that I can still spiral this hard like this

But idk. Everything is miserable rn. Normally I can shrug it off but even the things that would bring me joy just fucking suck

Had a moment while cooking today where everything just became too much again and my brain shut down in a way it hasn't for years and that's scary, I haven't had that sort of complete shutdown since my life was much worse and yet it's like it's haunting me even when things are meant to be better