God I miss it so much too I hope Jamie atones for his sins

. This turned into a vent oopsies

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-else doing it before they brought me on, literally lied to my fucking face and I’m permastuck in kitchen with coworkers who wonder why I’m there every night. I could go on forever about it but I already did. TL;DR new type of psychological torture just dropped

It’s a mess, I’m a mess. And it’s gonna just get messier all over again when I come back to work. The store I’m at doesn’t help either, I’m literally not needed idk why they took me in. I messed up the ecosystem there and I can’t even fucking do bakery as I was promised because they have someone-

I got off of work 5 days ago and immediately went into a 24hr episode and it’s been kind of off and on since, it was enough to finally force me to reckon with some mental health matters I have been RUNNING from my whole life but the thing is that I’m doing it all alone and it doesn’t feel good

Ok actually it’s kind of worse when the only tangible things you have for some characters are meme redraws. A couple months ago I drew my tiefling in the urethra!! img and that’s the most accurate drawing I have of him right now in terms of color and horn shape. I’m NOT showing anyone that

Enough of that though. Look at the way my cat was chilling when I came out of my room today (blankets covering arms of chair = cheap anti-clawmark tactic). My pet chill guy

This is a joke I don’t get this stuff very often because y’know I gotta actually use them all lmfao. But these are small and cheap enough to get multiple and Alkemia sent me an extra one for free :) (Guilded Alchemy) I’m lowkey obsessed with their site I’m always in there reading about their scents

The first 3 are from an Etsy shop and the 4 small bottles are from an actual house. The Drakon scent is limited time (discontinuing) which SUCKS SO BAD because I like that one A LOT. I’ll have to wear each one for a day to get a more in-depth opinion too ofc but Drakon ate immediately

Happy birthday!! It’s terrible that happened, I hope you have/had a good day regardless 🫂 ♥️

And I can focus on eating more balanced and cooking more. I can try to wake up earlier on days off to get more sunlight in. I can go out and do things more often. :’) idk. Trying not to think about money again but I can also open comms when I get to drawing more so 🦍💨

I think I contradicted myself a little bit mb I wish I could edit these lmfao. To clarify I get paid much more for working at night so part-time is pretty viable for me until the prospect of living alone comes in which makes it uncomfortably less viable. The situations I get into… 🧎‍➡️

And there’s nobody I trust enough irl to talk to in-depth about it 😭😭😭😭 my god just kill me

living on that (I get paid kinda big for working @ night so it’s not THAT much of an issue but to be 100% comfy I’d have to go back to fulltime). The situation I’m in isn’t complex in any form but DAMN do I not want to be in it… just know I’m having about 7 issues rn and they’re all holding hands