that being said, thank you very much for your own suggestions and kind words. it's very helpful and motivating while i do all that i can behind the scenes- i hope to get back to my bubbly self soon posting tons of furry tiddy as is custom lmao. i hope you have an awesome day sweet bean 💕

i've had suggestions from diet to exercise and then some, while i try my best to adhere to these things it's hard when i just kinda pass out during the day trying to assimilate 😂 i think there's an element to my sleep issues that may be a bit more uncommon and i'm desperate to figure out wtf it is

is CBD oil anything similar that you've noticed? i've tried it and it worked amazingly...once. lmao, maybe twice. the next several times i used it (and i upped the doses a lot) it actually made me stressed so i stopped :(

i have hope with some new stuff i've been attempting and have my eye on sleep clinics and their treatments if that fails! tysm for the well wishes, kind egg ❤️

when i can actually be at my computer it's nice to see such beautiful art all over my TL. i find i gravitate more here than the hellsite bc everything in the world just keeps getting worse every time i blink. maybe that stress doesn't help my sleep either lmao. g2g for now, i love y'all ❤️

which, given how many people get addicted to RX sleep meds, i'm legit terrified of it lmao. but- i need sleep and if i can force my muscles to stop holding onto so much damn pain and STRESS hormones- i think i'll at least have a routine again that resembles a diurnal cycle 😂

like when i tell you i almost crashed out seeing my last message sent in my server being a month ago i started crying 😭 i'm tired of being tired and every intervention i've tried (that i have access to) hasn't helped longer than one week. so last few ditch efforts when i can are sleep clinic and RX

so now, outside of a bunch of other suspicions for my sleep issues- i can attack this angle of tight muscles, high cortisol, and a better sleep routine/sleep hygiene. i'm really...really tired, i'm burnt tf out on everything from taking care of myself to remembering the date

it's some wild thing that helps soldiers with their high stress responses in the field, and got me to realize my body is on go mode 24/7 and that my response to this technique was similar to an involuntary response i had a month or two ago. that scared tf out of me, but doing it controlled was okay

and hopefully produce a thing or two easier/lighter works to make sure my hand didn't die along with the last of my brain cells 😂 i hope y'all are doin' ok despite the heat waves and storms

little by little rebuilding my routine so i can actually finish things, and possibly create on some kind of schedule again, days are a blur, dates are a blur, i blink and suddenly a week passes because my issues are lagging my brain something fierce. anyway- going to overhaul my art folders

it should be illegal for the body to crash from fatigue so much and yet still never feel rested from the crash. i got like 5 hours or so last night so i hope to use that to my advantage today despite no caffeine lol

i have a small amount of a sleep aid left with valerian root but taking the full dose makes me insanely groggy the next day- i'll see how i can modify it and search for valerian by itself in the mean while. thank you!!!

is there a particular brand of tea you prefer?

i am so very sorry for the radio silence on all fronts, i'm legit struggling to do daily crap and i'm functional for maybe a few hours a day if i have enough caffeine (after a long caffeine hiatus so this sucks)- just a tired egg trying to solve their silly body problems. love y'all, be well 💕

between my inability to keep time, feed myself, insomnia/sleep interruptions and then burnout depresso on top of it- i'm just happy to like. still be here lol. hopefully in a better state soon tho. love y'all and ty for the constant encouragement when i remember to talk on here (or anywhere, really)

if anyone wants to give me a spare brain and stomach i'd be eternally grateful 😂😂😂 i'm very tired of being tied to my bed, and not being able to know wtf i'm able to keep down food wise, and also having restless/no sleep. i'm a walking husk and i can't focus on much. it's improved, but not much.