which. not necessarily a bad thing. but would like to get back to thinking instead of browsing comment sections so often for so many things. comment sections are the mind killer.

between blue prince, many other super good analyses of fiction, and finally having the time to slow down, there's the questions of, how many things are we thinking about, actually, and how many are we only understanding from other people's prompting and explanation to get things to slot into place?

the question was just raised and immediately answered; difficulties with managing hanging out are definitely directly spawned by figuring out how interests work instead of Just Doing Shit, and also thinking about things and communicating hard when you've dissociated two decades.

though there's also the whole embodiment thing and the being different persons who might care about different things thing and the we all might generally care more about mechanics than story thing. so.

losing my fucking mind every time we hit 90% and have to rebound because it Just Isn't Right. it's so close. but then every time it's the invisible line between low poly and high rendering and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

this will probably happen after we wrangle dovetail into a better position, so maybe around the holidays. i do want to have a proper place of my own to show off art, storage costs be damned.

but yeah, that's a ways off. not enough time or energy for me to lead us off on another project just yet.

perhaps a neocities bucket, perhaps something more crude and effortless like a pile of links to minimally/unstyled pages with images and any potential yapping. it'd be nice! the site core is too much work to fit this in, and has no room for future categorization, like visdev or concept work

social media is not bad but it is evil and quite frankly even non numeric reaction features are bad for mental