Thank you!

I've had a few sleepless nights this week, but that of course means I've at least been productive.

Also side tail is goofy but fun :0P

Sketch and Ink layers:

Yes. Exactly like that.

Also LBH, we'd both invite the other one to join us if either of these was at all feasible haha

Yes please! I love your take on these two!

...when it comes to stuff like that, but even then consent and conversations about what that look like are really important to me because I was just genuinely unhappy at that size.

I'm starting to have joint problems as well (getting old sucks), so I probably should cut another 15-20 lbs if I can. But also, I didn't really feel healthy or fulfilled at that size. I'm not saying that people can't, I know plenty of people who do, but I prefer to be on the encouraging end...

I'm probably around 240-250 right now, which is bigger than I'd like to be, but is basically where my body has settled for a while after starting HRT. I'm starting to run into some of the issues I had when I was bigger when it comes to wardrobe and clothes that fit, especially now that I have boobs.

I get this question a lot, or questions like it, whenever I do one of these things. The highest I've ever been is probably around 275? Ish? Personally for me, that's too big. I like being active, I like being busy. Being that big definitely made some of my hobbies harder.

This is a very long-winded way of saying that I absolutely believe people can change, people can make mistakes, and I'm willing to give people more than enough chances to redeem themselves. All that matters to me is that you try.

If you are one of the few people on the list, I'm probably sorry about how things ended up, I probably still care about you more than I should, and I genuinely appreciate the good memories we shared before things went south. But I have no interest in rekindling relationships that have gone that far.

There aren't many people on this list, and if you are, you probably know that you are and know what you did. I try very hard not to stay around toxic relationships for me. I'm not saying those people are toxic, just that the relationship I had with them wasn't good for me.

... If I have actively told you that I don't want you in my life, and it's been a while and I still haven't reached out or still have you blocked, it's probably because I gave you a chance to make amends and you violated that vulnerability bad enough that I don't want you in my life.

I gotta be honest. I believe in second AND third chances. I go out of my way to give people the benefit of the doubt, even at my own expense. I've been trying to get better about that, setting boundaries for myself.

That having been said...

So yes this is a long-winded way of saying I do have crushes. No you won't know who they are, because by the time I voice them they will probably already be logiced out of my brain.

This is how I often pour myself into projects - I need to get at them quickly before I lose motivation, or really let them sit in my mind for a bit before I tackle them.

I get tangled up in possibilities before the weight of practicality or logic brings me to back down to earth.

As a Hopeless Romantic™, I often have a lot of crushes - most of them are really intense but tend to fizzle out after a few days/weeks.

For a crush to last, I'd need to get to know the person for a while, and let it be more of a slow burn - something deeper than the original infatuation.

Not really? Not yet. I'm not sure if he's actually a selkie or just a seal of Irish origin. He's more or less replacing Daniel for my "Male" side - he's basically me.

Daniel just didn't feel entirely right, but I knew I needed someone aquatic, and I'm really drawn to seals.

Not really? Not yet. I'm not sure if he's actually a selkie or just a seal of Irish origin. He's more or less replacing Daniel for my "Male" side - he's basically me.

Daniel just didn't feel entirely right, but I knew I needed someone aquatic, and I'm really drawn to seals.

This looks great!