Everything progressively worsing, but at the same time im quite hopefull i will recover; no more suicidal thoughts nor anxietu sprawl, especially these depression

But i finally got my meds back, gotta to take if routinely for atleast 6 month. The feeling is unnecessarily numbing; unpleasant to enact sensitivity—which a very dear quality for me. I guess is for the best: i dont want to be others burden

The weirdest of all my depression episode is that i lose everything that i thought i was good at, from academic to any hobby: reading, chess, gaming—which need proper cognitive function.
I cant sleep properly aswell and sometime i feel quite psychotic: i want to punch, scream and make a wreck

"Mischieveous demon, heretic and all that oppose clarity, truth we benign and bestow upon them suffer, for its torment shall relenquish god forgiveness, may this stone be the cleanser of your sin and begone wrecthfull one" said the cleric of Roá the formless one with boastful commendment