there isn’t a reason to keep going.

knowing you don’t matter to anyone fucking sucks lol

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I hope I die in my surgery on Tuesday

dying

knowing that no one loves you is a gross feeling and one i can’t wash off

tw suicide
having been forced to detransition, im kind of just a husk waiting for death tbh.
i don’t even care enough to make an attempt. my attempt in december just taught me im a coward too afraid to do the things that hurt to ensure success. oh well.

hi i’m felix and i’m blatantly begging bc i haven’t ate in two days
pls consider helping me out so i can get groceries and food for my animals
ca: battywraith
ven: batwraith
pp: dm me pls

they won’t let me sell my plasma cus of my conditions. so i can’t even sell my life force to try to support myself

i need to wake up and read the message the universe is trying to send me. i am not meant to live. i cannot find a single way to make income. this with everything else… why bother??

help

why do you ignore me like this

i cant do anything right. I can't make anyone happy. I'm sorry. I try really hard but it's just not good enough

I need a sign or a reason to stay alive
i’m begging the universe or whatever entities that exist, please.

i don’t know what else to do
i try isolating it doesn’t work
i try making friends it doesn’t work
i try talking to the friends i have they don’t respond
i post a ton about being down and i get ignored
why do i have to do so much just for nothing
am i that awful

why do I have to scream so loud for help

i’ve never felt so alone and abandoned. i think i should just let the government kill me. what’s the point of fighting anymore? i am a mistake and shouldn’t have ever existed

i don’t think i can stop anymore even if i wanted to.

i miss feeling connected to people. i miss friends. i miss happiness and love. but i’m just too wrong and flawed and bad and weird and i don’t deserve them. i don’t think i ever did.

i miss feeling seen. loved. wanted. I miss feeling safe and warm. but I'm so worthless and it's pointless trying to search for those feelings anymore. I don't deserve them