Samyaza Æsmodae Cristo
@samyazachristo.bsky.social
Professional Hot Bitch™
Opinion Haver
The coolest fallen angel this side of the afterlife.
25, he/they 💛🤍💜🖤
Opinion Haver
The coolest fallen angel this side of the afterlife.
25, he/they 💛🤍💜🖤
fuck I want to start streaming so bad but i work full time so I could maybe stream once a week and at that point I might as well not even bother
January 16, 2026 at 10:37 PM
fuck I want to start streaming so bad but i work full time so I could maybe stream once a week and at that point I might as well not even bother
idk honestly it feels really funny to have strong bible opinions as a hedonistic daoist
January 16, 2026 at 10:17 PM
idk honestly it feels really funny to have strong bible opinions as a hedonistic daoist
every so often I have to remind myself that some battles just aren't worth fighting. I live with two satanists whose idea of satanism comes from the Catholic church and as someone with a Bible special interest it gets hard to keep quiet when they start saying shit they made up a themselves
January 16, 2026 at 10:10 PM
every so often I have to remind myself that some battles just aren't worth fighting. I live with two satanists whose idea of satanism comes from the Catholic church and as someone with a Bible special interest it gets hard to keep quiet when they start saying shit they made up a themselves
what if I just killed myself. not in a depression way but in a "I wouldn't have to deal with any bullshit anymore" way
January 3, 2026 at 4:06 AM
what if I just killed myself. not in a depression way but in a "I wouldn't have to deal with any bullshit anymore" way
feeling extra evil, and the only place I have in the house where I can sort of self isolate is the laundry room, which is the most uncomfortable room in the house, with no heat, where I can hear every single other thing in the house, and it acts as a throughway for anyone trying to go anywhere
January 3, 2026 at 4:03 AM
feeling extra evil, and the only place I have in the house where I can sort of self isolate is the laundry room, which is the most uncomfortable room in the house, with no heat, where I can hear every single other thing in the house, and it acts as a throughway for anyone trying to go anywhere
holy fuck does Zoloft fucking work
December 22, 2025 at 10:06 PM
holy fuck does Zoloft fucking work
this motherfucker rewired my brain I think. I'm gonna kill 'em
December 21, 2025 at 11:36 PM
this motherfucker rewired my brain I think. I'm gonna kill 'em
also I can't stop eating these god awful toasted nuts
December 21, 2025 at 10:05 PM
also I can't stop eating these god awful toasted nuts
coworker is on a dubstep kick and while it's not *awful* per se, the music energy is way too high for the mood we're both in
December 21, 2025 at 10:05 PM
coworker is on a dubstep kick and while it's not *awful* per se, the music energy is way too high for the mood we're both in
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I want nothing more than to be by your side forever and always, but I think we both know I can only make things worse. I love you, and I'm so sorry for getting you involved with me. 🫂🖤
December 11, 2025 at 9:32 AM
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I want nothing more than to be by your side forever and always, but I think we both know I can only make things worse. I love you, and I'm so sorry for getting you involved with me. 🫂🖤
Let me out of this body let me out of this mind let me go somewhere where I won't hurt anyone again. I'm tired of hurting everyone I care about. I'm tired of always fucking up. I'm tired. I just want to be good, to be helpful, to be useful. I guess that's selfish for me to want anything, though.
December 11, 2025 at 9:22 AM
Let me out of this body let me out of this mind let me go somewhere where I won't hurt anyone again. I'm tired of hurting everyone I care about. I'm tired of always fucking up. I'm tired. I just want to be good, to be helpful, to be useful. I guess that's selfish for me to want anything, though.
I'm such a good scapegoat. Did something wrong? Samy's fault. Did something embarrassing? Samy's fault. Made a mistake? Samy's fault. I can be anything you want as long as it's nothing good. I will never be good enough to offset the pain I cause.
December 11, 2025 at 9:19 AM
I'm such a good scapegoat. Did something wrong? Samy's fault. Did something embarrassing? Samy's fault. Made a mistake? Samy's fault. I can be anything you want as long as it's nothing good. I will never be good enough to offset the pain I cause.
everyone feels horrible and it's my fucking fault. I should stop being me. I should stop being Samy. I should stop being. The best thing for everyone would be if I just walked away and never came back. Moving on would be less painful than staying near me.
December 11, 2025 at 9:17 AM
everyone feels horrible and it's my fucking fault. I should stop being me. I should stop being Samy. I should stop being. The best thing for everyone would be if I just walked away and never came back. Moving on would be less painful than staying near me.
I continuously promise myself that I will strive to never hurt anyone again, and yet *consistently* I find myself distressing those I care about. Idk. Maybe I should have never let my walls down. Samy has a track record of fucking things up and making things awkward. I'm tired.
December 11, 2025 at 7:44 AM
I continuously promise myself that I will strive to never hurt anyone again, and yet *consistently* I find myself distressing those I care about. Idk. Maybe I should have never let my walls down. Samy has a track record of fucking things up and making things awkward. I'm tired.
UGHHHHHHHHHHIHHUHHHHHHHHHGHUHGHHH
December 11, 2025 at 7:21 AM
UGHHHHHHHHHHIHHUHHHHHHHHHGHUHGHHH
"Oh boy I sure can wait to watch a movie with everyone and spend time with my girlfriend!" *immediately switches out to someone else and goes straight to sleep*
December 5, 2025 at 7:13 PM
"Oh boy I sure can wait to watch a movie with everyone and spend time with my girlfriend!" *immediately switches out to someone else and goes straight to sleep*
Jingledorf The Grinklecrumb
December 5, 2025 at 9:19 AM
Jingledorf The Grinklecrumb
There is a gnawing hunger at the pit of my being, a gaping maw at the center of my universe. A craving, a desire, an unending need...
for more jalapeno poppers.
for more jalapeno poppers.
December 5, 2025 at 9:01 AM
There is a gnawing hunger at the pit of my being, a gaping maw at the center of my universe. A craving, a desire, an unending need...
for more jalapeno poppers.
for more jalapeno poppers.
It's a special kind of awful that follows you around wherever you go, whatever you do, and all you can really hope for is to pretend it isn't there.
December 4, 2025 at 5:58 PM
It's a special kind of awful that follows you around wherever you go, whatever you do, and all you can really hope for is to pretend it isn't there.
It's all I can do to keep myself afloat. How am I supposed to keep everyone else happy if I can barely keep myself from giving up?
December 4, 2025 at 3:23 AM
It's all I can do to keep myself afloat. How am I supposed to keep everyone else happy if I can barely keep myself from giving up?
Legally distinct YouTube music Recap
December 3, 2025 at 7:06 PM
Legally distinct YouTube music Recap
Idk I'm trying *not* to regret moving up here but it's uh. It's getting hard.
November 25, 2025 at 5:36 PM
Idk I'm trying *not* to regret moving up here but it's uh. It's getting hard.
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November 25, 2025 at 5:00 PM
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There's a miasma falling over the house. Everyone is falling apart and I just. I don't have to the energy or the financial resources to help those that need it I'm barely keeping together myself but I *have* to keep it together because if I don't stand strong who will?
November 25, 2025 at 4:56 PM
There's a miasma falling over the house. Everyone is falling apart and I just. I don't have to the energy or the financial resources to help those that need it I'm barely keeping together myself but I *have* to keep it together because if I don't stand strong who will?
why does my everything hurt
November 17, 2025 at 5:31 AM
why does my everything hurt