Sarah W
@sarahminwonderland.bsky.social
Spend my days looking after my animals, dealing with mental health, trauma therapy ongoing. #TraumaNotPD
ECG today. My anxiety heartbeat is now in the late 90’s. Massive improvement from yesterday. Don’t know whether it was because of the random plug on the Ceiling though.
Wonder if they put it there to distract people 🤔
If I get a phone call it’s a bad thing. No phone call yet!
Wonder if they put it there to distract people 🤔
If I get a phone call it’s a bad thing. No phone call yet!
February 6, 2026 at 4:34 PM
ECG today. My anxiety heartbeat is now in the late 90’s. Massive improvement from yesterday. Don’t know whether it was because of the random plug on the Ceiling though.
Wonder if they put it there to distract people 🤔
If I get a phone call it’s a bad thing. No phone call yet!
Wonder if they put it there to distract people 🤔
If I get a phone call it’s a bad thing. No phone call yet!
“Is a Heartbeat of over 100 normal for you?”
Nope, it’s called Anxiety.
Nope, it’s called Anxiety.
February 5, 2026 at 7:01 PM
“Is a Heartbeat of over 100 normal for you?”
Nope, it’s called Anxiety.
Nope, it’s called Anxiety.
Tough EMDR session. When bringing me back to the present I said something and we were both in fits of giggles.
February 4, 2026 at 5:51 PM
Tough EMDR session. When bringing me back to the present I said something and we were both in fits of giggles.
Been doing some selling on Ebay and an obvious reseller was buying my stuff as I put them on so I doubled my price for a couple of things (to basically its retail price) to see whether he would bite but he didn’t. Now need to put them back down but not quite yet.
January 25, 2026 at 3:15 PM
Been doing some selling on Ebay and an obvious reseller was buying my stuff as I put them on so I doubled my price for a couple of things (to basically its retail price) to see whether he would bite but he didn’t. Now need to put them back down but not quite yet.
Come back from a really tough EMDR session, needed to just lie down so went into the conservatory, when I was joined by Woody. He knew I needed him.
January 21, 2026 at 2:42 PM
Come back from a really tough EMDR session, needed to just lie down so went into the conservatory, when I was joined by Woody. He knew I needed him.
One of the side effects of my EMDR is that my brain just can’t stop that night and I end up falling asleep between 3/4am in the end no matter what I try.
I’m also having to be careful about saying how bad I’m feeling in general (a lot of things all coming at me at once)
I’m also having to be careful about saying how bad I’m feeling in general (a lot of things all coming at me at once)
January 15, 2026 at 4:32 PM
One of the side effects of my EMDR is that my brain just can’t stop that night and I end up falling asleep between 3/4am in the end no matter what I try.
I’m also having to be careful about saying how bad I’m feeling in general (a lot of things all coming at me at once)
I’m also having to be careful about saying how bad I’m feeling in general (a lot of things all coming at me at once)
Only I, during EMDR have Britney Soears songs in my head non stop.
January 14, 2026 at 4:03 PM
Only I, during EMDR have Britney Soears songs in my head non stop.
Went upstairs to avoid Sister and fell asleep. The face I was wrapped up in bed watching YouTube might have had a lot to do with it though.
January 10, 2026 at 3:26 PM
Went upstairs to avoid Sister and fell asleep. The face I was wrapped up in bed watching YouTube might have had a lot to do with it though.
It’s taking so much effort to get out of bed. In full blown depressive episode but live with others who don’t understand so have no choice but to get up and dressed when all I want is to be in bed or up in my PJ’s. Having to mask is making it worse.
January 9, 2026 at 11:00 AM
It’s taking so much effort to get out of bed. In full blown depressive episode but live with others who don’t understand so have no choice but to get up and dressed when all I want is to be in bed or up in my PJ’s. Having to mask is making it worse.
New Year can 🖕itself.
January 1, 2026 at 3:38 PM
New Year can 🖕itself.
Did everything right, practiced self care, relaxing stuff so was asleep at 11pm. Until parent LOUDLY went to the toilet at 11.40 shouting things (they are aware of me needing to be asleep) and I was so wound up after Fireworks I didn’t calm down again till 3am. Shattered
January 1, 2026 at 3:36 PM
Did everything right, practiced self care, relaxing stuff so was asleep at 11pm. Until parent LOUDLY went to the toilet at 11.40 shouting things (they are aware of me needing to be asleep) and I was so wound up after Fireworks I didn’t calm down again till 3am. Shattered
Need to take a Diaz to get through the night time festivities but leaving it as late as possible as I only have two left for tonight and tomorrow. Wish I hadn’t used so many over Christmas.
December 31, 2025 at 1:55 PM
Need to take a Diaz to get through the night time festivities but leaving it as late as possible as I only have two left for tonight and tomorrow. Wish I hadn’t used so many over Christmas.
The temperature change at the start of the month brought knee weakness on overnight literally. One milder day they were fine and then the first cold day they got weak and they haven’t got better.
December 30, 2025 at 4:55 PM
The temperature change at the start of the month brought knee weakness on overnight literally. One milder day they were fine and then the first cold day they got weak and they haven’t got better.
Found out a part of my early years was a lie. Great thing to find out when you have a two week break from Therapy ffs.
December 19, 2025 at 5:20 PM
Found out a part of my early years was a lie. Great thing to find out when you have a two week break from Therapy ffs.
Four hours sleep last night because of anxiety of appointment and getting up on time for it. I never see darkness in the Morning but saw it this morning.
Had to take a freezing cold Shower to wake me up earlier as I was falling asleep.
Had to take a freezing cold Shower to wake me up earlier as I was falling asleep.
December 12, 2025 at 4:25 PM
Four hours sleep last night because of anxiety of appointment and getting up on time for it. I never see darkness in the Morning but saw it this morning.
Had to take a freezing cold Shower to wake me up earlier as I was falling asleep.
Had to take a freezing cold Shower to wake me up earlier as I was falling asleep.
Had to visit Sister who talks about people claiming benefits being scroungers right in front of me. Not allowed to speak up and the best thing,(not) she’s part of my trauma.
November 27, 2025 at 4:58 PM
Had to visit Sister who talks about people claiming benefits being scroungers right in front of me. Not allowed to speak up and the best thing,(not) she’s part of my trauma.
Exhausted and just need a huge hug. First proper go at processing today. Having to speak this out as I don’t have the function to type. Sorry if I don’t answer others, all I can do is hearts.
November 26, 2025 at 2:22 PM
Exhausted and just need a huge hug. First proper go at processing today. Having to speak this out as I don’t have the function to type. Sorry if I don’t answer others, all I can do is hearts.
If I didn’t know different, my NHS app saying I have an appointment with the Oncology service would be distressing.
It’s in the same part of the building as haematology who the appointment is for, for a specialist Blood Test.
At least have a letter ready to read before putting it on the app.
It’s in the same part of the building as haematology who the appointment is for, for a specialist Blood Test.
At least have a letter ready to read before putting it on the app.
November 20, 2025 at 1:01 PM
If I didn’t know different, my NHS app saying I have an appointment with the Oncology service would be distressing.
It’s in the same part of the building as haematology who the appointment is for, for a specialist Blood Test.
At least have a letter ready to read before putting it on the app.
It’s in the same part of the building as haematology who the appointment is for, for a specialist Blood Test.
At least have a letter ready to read before putting it on the app.
Trying to sell stuff on EBay and Marketplace but no luck.
Mostly Harry Potter stuff I collected before the Author showed her true colours. Guess that’s the reason no one is buying the stuff.
Mostly Harry Potter stuff I collected before the Author showed her true colours. Guess that’s the reason no one is buying the stuff.
November 13, 2025 at 1:41 PM
Trying to sell stuff on EBay and Marketplace but no luck.
Mostly Harry Potter stuff I collected before the Author showed her true colours. Guess that’s the reason no one is buying the stuff.
Mostly Harry Potter stuff I collected before the Author showed her true colours. Guess that’s the reason no one is buying the stuff.
Hate nearly everything, hate life, hate endings.
November 7, 2025 at 2:24 PM
Hate nearly everything, hate life, hate endings.
I want to die. That is all.
November 5, 2025 at 1:22 PM
I want to die. That is all.
Pip decision on its way to me. I’ve not been contacted at all. Don’t know whether that’s a good or bad thing 😢
Now got to wait for the letter.
Now got to wait for the letter.
October 30, 2025 at 1:46 PM
Pip decision on its way to me. I’ve not been contacted at all. Don’t know whether that’s a good or bad thing 😢
Now got to wait for the letter.
Now got to wait for the letter.
Had me therapy on Monday this week instead of Wednesday.
Very tough, went non verbal. Therapist was brilliant as per usual.
Very tough, went non verbal. Therapist was brilliant as per usual.
October 28, 2025 at 6:06 PM
Had me therapy on Monday this week instead of Wednesday.
Very tough, went non verbal. Therapist was brilliant as per usual.
Very tough, went non verbal. Therapist was brilliant as per usual.
Anyone got a ball I can curl into?
October 27, 2025 at 3:11 PM
Anyone got a ball I can curl into?
Couldn’t sleep last night. Was doing a lot of processing. Who knew that I found the concept Nuturing so hard. Oh yeah, that would be me.
October 23, 2025 at 2:06 PM
Couldn’t sleep last night. Was doing a lot of processing. Who knew that I found the concept Nuturing so hard. Oh yeah, that would be me.