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spooky sara 🎃
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 22d
i lived bros 💞💜
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · Jul 25
can’t wait to wake up from surgery and post my celebratory “i lived bros”
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · Jul 25
i can’t wait until i get ffs i’m gonna be such a hot boy
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 26m
at least one of those has gotta be a country
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liv's evil second cousin twice-removed, liv @livfreeorcry.gay · 28m
hey next time you're gonne write something like "hypospadic slitchads" could u hit me with a bus first thanks in advance
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 29m
GO TO SLEEP JAMES FEAR NOT THE BRAINWORMS OF A DISCOURSE THAT WILL NEVER BE SWEET DREAMS
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 31m
yep lmao
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 59m
yeah so the story is: one time 5 years ago, he used too much of his DIY estrogen moisturizer and had a nightmare about growing tits. which BASICALLY means he knows what dysphoria is like!
post on r/DrWillPowers by u/DrWillPowers titled “The story of how I screwed up a dose calculation and gave myself gender dysphoria for two days.” I debated ever admitting to this publicly as it would add to the "mad scientist" perception people have of me, or me being reckless (which is pretty unfair, ! don't do anything that isn't done to humans safely in other branches of medicine, I just combined them under one umbrella). That being said, I think it important to admit to and document just to express what it was like for a cis person to have gender dysphoria. I'm a dude. Very much a dude. Love being a dude, its great. We're big and strong and durable and fast. We're built for hunting and defense. I have literally never in my life wanted to be feminine or female in any way. I am however a vain SOB, and I want to be young and healthy forever. If I could make myself immortal somehow I'd do it immediately. There is so much knowledge out there that I'II never get to learn because I'll die too soon. To that, I take certain things to potentially extend my lifespan, and one of my little "tricks" was after noticing the rejuvenating effect feminizing HRT had on my patients, particularly their facial skin. It literally It literally erases wrinkles and makes them look a decade younger. I figured I could exploit this in myself. I've made myself varying formulations of E2, E3, or a combination of both to be applied topically to the face. My current one is 90:10 E2, E3 at 10mg/gram or 1%. I apply 1/5 of a gram to my hand, mix it with some moisturizer and throw that crap on my face once or twice a week. It had a really impressive effect in terms of wiping out some of my "mid thirties" lines on my face. When I checked my serum levels, they remained at baseline (E2 of about 40-60ish usually, T 700-1000) I was quite proud of this trick, and I had it compounded into a "clicker" which is a dispenser that lets me put out 1/5 of a gram at a time. I recently decided to try pure E2 and Pure E3 to see which was generating the better effect as I always used a blend. When I wrote the RX for the pure E2, I wasn't paying attention, and I wrote for 100mg/gm or 10% cream. I made this mistake by clicking the box I normally click for transitioning patients (as I click that box 99% of the time) instead of the one I have for myself. Thank god I made this mistake on myself and not a patient. I literally have never made a dose calculation error before in my whole career and I made it on myself. It arrived and I didn't notice the mistake. Unlike the usual clicker, this came in a pump. I tried to dispense 1/5 gram, but when I pushed the pump, a whole gram came out. I didn't want to waste it all and I was in a rush, and so I figured screw it, its fine, its only 1%, and I slathered my face up with that and went on my merry way. It’s insanely dry here in Michigan in the winter, and the next day I had some dry skin on my face again. Unable to find any moisturizer in the house, I figured I'd get some after clinic, and I just used one more full pump again and committed to getting some cetaphil on the way home. And this was a terrible mistake. The following night, I had a dream that I was developing gynecomastia. It was bizarre to have such a dream, as I literally have never had anything of the sort in my head my whole life. People always think I'm secretly trans or have some transgender family member. Nope. I honestly love what I do because its a puzzle that hasn't been solved by everyone else yet. The biochemistry is fascinating. Regardless, in regards to the gynecomastia dream, I didn't think much of it. I showered in the morning, saw myself in the mirror, all was well, just a dream. Flamed on to see patients. Had a good day, went to bed. I woke up the following morning and all was not okay. I leaned over and my chest hurt. I was very confused, until I touched my chest and realized my nipple was hard as a rock and insanely painful. Realizing I probably screwed up by using a full gram, I ran to the bathroom to look at the bottle and pretty much gasped in horror. I had not only used 5x the normal amount, I used 100x the normal dose effectively. Twice. In two days I had given myself more estrogen than I would normally give myself in like 6 months. I normally use 1/5 of a 10mg dose once or twice a week. so 4mg a week at most or less than 1mg a day. I gave myself 200mg in two days. Dysphoria crashed over me like a literal wave as I was scrambling to think how I could undo my screw up. I imagined the horror scenario like I had started some unstoppable progress and this would just continue unabated even if I stopped the estrogen. I rapidly dreamed up whatever pharmacology I could think of to reverse the process as quickly as possible and used it. Thankfully, two days later, all went back to normal. However, during those two days when my estrogen was like stupidly high, I could not stop thinking about how awful it was and how much I didn't want those changes to happen to my body. It was really honestly pretty terrible, and I have a newfound empathy for gender dysphoria as a problem. I had sympathy before, but now I have empathy as I think I got a small taste of what that must be like to deal with. It literally dominated my thoughts for 2 days and I had nightmares about it. Embarrassing as this story is to tell, I think it important to share. - Dr Powers
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 31m
i’m hongooning
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 34m
a con of using linux: i can’t get irate about playing destiny 2 anymore

a pro of using linux: i can’t get irate about playing destiny 2 anymore
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 36m
hell yeah!! i have a feeling mine’s seen it, and i’m admittedly curious to see if she has any bones to pick with the sections i helped out on 🤭
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 37m
inshallah we will see the kernel-level anticheat crisis solved in our lifetimes
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Framework @frame.work · 58m
Some of the last reasons to stay on Windows have been gaming related. Both the time from installation to in-game and gaming performance on Bazzite are now actually better than Windows on many games, and living room usability is more seamless too.
Bazzite on Framework Desktop
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 39m
oh yeah i can 100% see that tbh, like i don’t frequent his subreddit all that often but from my handful of visits there are WEIRD fucking vibes surrounding intersex conditions and the intersection between those and transness
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 42m
HOLY SHIT WAIT ACTUALLY THOUGH WHY IS THIS SO PAUL-CODED
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 44m
makes sense because there are no true grunglers only these two options
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Katie Tightpussy, Editor-In-Chief @katie.bzky.team · Jun 3
YES EXACTLY. REPPERS OR SEXUAL CRIMINALS. THAT'S IT!
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 46m
neither does torps!!! unless you count the weird urban dictionary definition about skinny hung men but there’s no results on like trans reddit or anything lol
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 46m
i mean ngl if i was a doctor i would be doing shit like this all the fucking time for myself, i just wouldn’t be writing reddit posts about how i now understand The Trans Experience about it lmao
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 48m
with 2.5 billion you could afford to be seen by dr will powers for at least six months!
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 49m
OH okay yeah three billion dollars would really hit the spot right now ngl
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 50m
MEL HE’S THE TWINK LICH THERE ARE AT LEAST BETTER WAYS OF GOING ABOUT IT THAN WHAT BRYAN FUCKING JOHNSON DOES
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 52m
my honest reaction to this information
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Jjinandtonic @jjinandtonic.bsky.social · Aug 10
Noted “non-feminizing estrogen” enjoyer Bryan Johnson
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 53m
as a person i think he was formulated in a lab to make me angry his soul itself is like a bioengineered cognitohazard
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 55m
i’m assuming that he has like the equivalent of being tenured but for doctors or something lmao
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 56m
when i say “trans people need more cults” this is NOT what im talking about!!!!
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 57m
MEL WHAT THE FUCK
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 59m
yeah so the story is: one time 5 years ago, he used too much of his DIY estrogen moisturizer and had a nightmare about growing tits. which BASICALLY means he knows what dysphoria is like!
post on r/DrWillPowers by u/DrWillPowers titled “The story of how I screwed up a dose calculation and gave myself gender dysphoria for two days.” I debated ever admitting to this publicly as it would add to the "mad scientist" perception people have of me, or me being reckless (which is pretty unfair, ! don't do anything that isn't done to humans safely in other branches of medicine, I just combined them under one umbrella). That being said, I think it important to admit to and document just to express what it was like for a cis person to have gender dysphoria. I'm a dude. Very much a dude. Love being a dude, its great. We're big and strong and durable and fast. We're built for hunting and defense. I have literally never in my life wanted to be feminine or female in any way. I am however a vain SOB, and I want to be young and healthy forever. If I could make myself immortal somehow I'd do it immediately. There is so much knowledge out there that I'II never get to learn because I'll die too soon. To that, I take certain things to potentially extend my lifespan, and one of my little "tricks" was after noticing the rejuvenating effect feminizing HRT had on my patients, particularly their facial skin. It literally It literally erases wrinkles and makes them look a decade younger. I figured I could exploit this in myself. I've made myself varying formulations of E2, E3, or a combination of both to be applied topically to the face. My current one is 90:10 E2, E3 at 10mg/gram or 1%. I apply 1/5 of a gram to my hand, mix it with some moisturizer and throw that crap on my face once or twice a week. It had a really impressive effect in terms of wiping out some of my "mid thirties" lines on my face. When I checked my serum levels, they remained at baseline (E2 of about 40-60ish usually, T 700-1000) I was quite proud of this trick, and I had it compounded into a "clicker" which is a dispenser that lets me put out 1/5 of a gram at a time. I recently decided to try pure E2 and Pure E3 to see which was generating the better effect as I always used a blend. When I wrote the RX for the pure E2, I wasn't paying attention, and I wrote for 100mg/gm or 10% cream. I made this mistake by clicking the box I normally click for transitioning patients (as I click that box 99% of the time) instead of the one I have for myself. Thank god I made this mistake on myself and not a patient. I literally have never made a dose calculation error before in my whole career and I made it on myself. It arrived and I didn't notice the mistake. Unlike the usual clicker, this came in a pump. I tried to dispense 1/5 gram, but when I pushed the pump, a whole gram came out. I didn't want to waste it all and I was in a rush, and so I figured screw it, its fine, its only 1%, and I slathered my face up with that and went on my merry way. It’s insanely dry here in Michigan in the winter, and the next day I had some dry skin on my face again. Unable to find any moisturizer in the house, I figured I'd get some after clinic, and I just used one more full pump again and committed to getting some cetaphil on the way home. And this was a terrible mistake. The following night, I had a dream that I was developing gynecomastia. It was bizarre to have such a dream, as I literally have never had anything of the sort in my head my whole life. People always think I'm secretly trans or have some transgender family member. Nope. I honestly love what I do because its a puzzle that hasn't been solved by everyone else yet. The biochemistry is fascinating. Regardless, in regards to the gynecomastia dream, I didn't think much of it. I showered in the morning, saw myself in the mirror, all was well, just a dream. Flamed on to see patients. Had a good day, went to bed. I woke up the following morning and all was not okay. I leaned over and my chest hurt. I was very confused, until I touched my chest and realized my nipple was hard as a rock and insanely painful. Realizing I probably screwed up by using a full gram, I ran to the bathroom to look at the bottle and pretty much gasped in horror. I had not only used 5x the normal amount, I used 100x the normal dose effectively. Twice. In two days I had given myself more estrogen than I would normally give myself in like 6 months. I normally use 1/5 of a 10mg dose once or twice a week. so 4mg a week at most or less than 1mg a day. I gave myself 200mg in two days. Dysphoria crashed over me like a literal wave as I was scrambling to think how I could undo my screw up. I imagined the horror scenario like I had started some unstoppable progress and this would just continue unabated even if I stopped the estrogen. I rapidly dreamed up whatever pharmacology I could think of to reverse the process as quickly as possible and used it. Thankfully, two days later, all went back to normal. However, during those two days when my estrogen was like stupidly high, I could not stop thinking about how awful it was and how much I didn't want those changes to happen to my body. It was really honestly pretty terrible, and I have a newfound empathy for gender dysphoria as a problem. I had sympathy before, but now I have empathy as I think I got a small taste of what that must be like to deal with. It literally dominated my thoughts for 2 days and I had nightmares about it. Embarrassing as this story is to tell, I think it important to share. - Dr Powers
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 1h
even worse, he seems to learn all of his stuff exclusively from his own subreddit, where the community has an incredibly unique and pronounced collective personality (extremely derogatory) catered around the effective deification of him specifically
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 1h
idk why this reply got auto-hidden because yes yes he is lmao
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spooky sara 🎃 @sarasoci.al · 1h
no literally of course his fucking reddit community taught him about honposting before dolls lmfao
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