quantum mechanics is scary enough
@schrodinger1cat.bsky.social
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it/they/he, minor, no dni | therian, traitblur, autokinflux vent posts often untagged i act like java is an acceptable programming language <3 music and my ocs #1 liminal space fan half-genuinely think ill get into cern. as a janitor
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whateverrrr its nottt that deeepp im gonna go stare at cars and try not to think about the fact ive got early classes tomorrroww rawr xd
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i like how my vent posts also double as lore drops. are the dots connecting now /lh
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the damage has been done. i played with my childhood best friend when i was away in my head so much that i cant look her in the eyes anymore. ill never have someone who knows me better than i know myself and fundamentally, *i* dont need that. i dont know What needs that, but its not *me*
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to spell it out, ill never not have been lonely. its not any single persons fault i was - maybe mine the most if anything. being lonely felt like Me so it felt safe. and i dont still exactly know why i want to fight that. i can try to stop being lonely now, and i am, im mostly Okay now but.
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its like, what trips me up is no matter how much of myself rewrite its still Me. i still Know those parts of me even if theyll never come back. i cant undo, unlove, unthink abt running away when i was 8, ungo to the birthday parties and unmove from this fucking town. i cant unlearn or unexperience.
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it wasnt even her fault i just dont know how to be normal. whateverrrrr
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i hate that i kinda ruined my life over one person but ill be too employed later tdy to care
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or i could go to sleep. thats an option .
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anyways i think i should update my homescreen... its still alternating boywithuke lyrics from That Phase; (and this is also why yall dont get to flame me for my spotify wrapped this year it used to be so much worse at least i like objective peak now:3)
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its so frkn warm what the heck is the ac broken again,,,
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life could be a dream if every single one of my thoughts couldnt be used in an sp4 description . its whatevs tbh. idk how i ever doubted my type tbh no cus how didnt i realise that despite feeling very deeply i mostly hid it from ppl for. convenience? but now i see it and its Falling into Place broo
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my solution is just to become self obsessed and see urself from the third person but. duality nonetheless
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the duality of wanting to feel seen but not wanting to be observed
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im gotta lock into lanlifshitz tmrw but at this rate im not finishing this frkn module (and hence techschool. oh yea im almost done w techschool. both a blessing & a curse tbh cus ill no longer have an excuse to hack the ns- i mean. work on the spi saga. during the day. but i could be freee) tdy bro
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i love having an internet presence. in which other year in all of human history would this kind of utterance not only be acceptable but perhaps comedic.
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ayyy the next sems actually an acceptable length!!! the teacher does sound underwater but. we pick our battles around here
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it fine i make thru i tend to👍may go grab little treat first tho...
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who hasnt tbh,,, (i ate paper, playdough on Many occasions, toothpaste, i think i swallowed a coin once,,, )
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genuinely regretting not doing the ai course right now. like do not get it twisted genai can burn and die but i doubt future unis id be applying to would know that. sighhhhhhhh im 15 i lost my "im 14 and this is deep" pass already its Not that deep bros...
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theyre actually googling the tech the whole MODULE is supposed to be about DURING CLASS (literally only one persons been showing up this entire time AND HE HAS TO TEACH THE TEACHER this is fine)