i don't want to search for an answer anymore, i don't want to stay in the fog anymore, and i don't want to get swallowed up whole eventually.

so i'm using the feelings i have for myself and my life as my own answer.

i don't know much and maybe that's a big part of all of this for me: i don't know.

and that maybe eats me up slowly inside.

i'm trying to look for you but.. it's like the deeper i go inside this fog, the harder it gets for me, and i can't find you and don't know if i was meant to find you.

it's as if we're placed inside a fog. we're both lost. i'm losing my shit about the situation and i want to get out of it with you because i heard you're lost in it too.

and i'm still not entirely sure if this was a good decision for me to make but i want to take a step forward in my life having in mind the kind of life i want right now and what would lessen the amount of times i frown.

there's a part of me that thinks "what if i still stayed. what if there's anything else that could be done and work for this situation," but.. i don't know.

FINE.

i'm gonna fucking scream it started ringing again

it just stopped. i hope i don't hear any more of it

i still remember this. it still means something to me. even more now.

ha! i actually watched that one but haven't continued it. i think the only thing stopping me from continuing it is this feeling that maybe it would be more romantic than not due to everything i've seen so far? ;;

i'll.. dm you www

ahh i see

someone stop me i'm about to start talking™

oh thank god