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is my phone not peaceful and calm..? It's a f***ing phone, it is what it is, tech. I hate this new era of broligarchy

There is an essence of the tide moving out, and I’m going to go with the wave rather than stand on the shore. I’m going to follow the current rather than wait for it to return.

More concentrated way. I like it..

But as I was meditating this morning and just sort of feeling into everything, I had thought I wanted to vocalize. The renaissance is over.

I’m going to allow my magic to simmer outside of the influence of the popular or social media or public view.

And letting go. Opening up. There is a greater agency that is my True Will at play, talking through the loud voice of consciousness, through the deep dreaming self. Heeding that conversation has been the hardest challenge.

The path is a projection, the dream is beneath it, peeking through it, and all around it. Learning to differentiate that, learning to speak that language and understand it, wide, awake, tapping into that consciousness, has been a big lesson this year.

Yes, I closed my business. Yes, I lost my home. Yes, I found myself a caregiver for two people. Yes, I lost my father and my dog. Sometimes I did not know where I would be next… I knew I was going in the right direction, even though the path did not look right.

I grew up with this wrong, headed logic that if I pursued anything else, other than my art, I was betraying something. I am not. I can pursue what I like and do what I need to do at the same time. The power of dreams teaches me at the surface is deceptive, the reality is much deeper.