Zayden
@scr4wny.bsky.social
★ they/them 🖤🤍💜
★ writer ✒️
★ death/black/thrash metal, dark ambience🤘💀
★ dx an b/p, depression, social anxiety
★ self-harmer
★ pro harm reduction
★ I don't post stats, only calorie logs etc.
★ vegan 🌿
🌈 🌈 🌈
★ writer ✒️
★ death/black/thrash metal, dark ambience🤘💀
★ dx an b/p, depression, social anxiety
★ self-harmer
★ pro harm reduction
★ I don't post stats, only calorie logs etc.
★ vegan 🌿
🌈 🌈 🌈
15/1 goals:
- 10k steps
- 1.4k cal
- finish reading library book
- 2k words
- 10k steps
- 1.4k cal
- finish reading library book
- 2k words
January 15, 2026 at 8:01 AM
15/1 goals:
- 10k steps
- 1.4k cal
- finish reading library book
- 2k words
- 10k steps
- 1.4k cal
- finish reading library book
- 2k words
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To the ~5 people in recovery who read my posts:
You matter, you’re doing great, keep at it. Recovery is hard but worth it and every step matters. You are so strong for choosing recovery over and over again—even if sometimes you slip. Especially if sometimes you slip.
You matter, you’re doing great, keep at it. Recovery is hard but worth it and every step matters. You are so strong for choosing recovery over and over again—even if sometimes you slip. Especially if sometimes you slip.
January 11, 2026 at 3:38 PM
To the ~5 people in recovery who read my posts:
You matter, you’re doing great, keep at it. Recovery is hard but worth it and every step matters. You are so strong for choosing recovery over and over again—even if sometimes you slip. Especially if sometimes you slip.
You matter, you’re doing great, keep at it. Recovery is hard but worth it and every step matters. You are so strong for choosing recovery over and over again—even if sometimes you slip. Especially if sometimes you slip.
I've stuck to my New Year resolution to avoid gluten and not b/p on unhealthy stuff for two weeks now. There were a few close calls but it's way easier to control the cravings already.
January 15, 2026 at 7:23 AM
I've stuck to my New Year resolution to avoid gluten and not b/p on unhealthy stuff for two weeks now. There were a few close calls but it's way easier to control the cravings already.
Suppose that's one of the themes in my writing? Our organized religion and servitude in the castle might seem like it shares similarities to vacuous power structures here on present-day Earth but within closer inspection you'll learn it's a rite of self-discovery.
January 13, 2026 at 5:15 PM
Suppose that's one of the themes in my writing? Our organized religion and servitude in the castle might seem like it shares similarities to vacuous power structures here on present-day Earth but within closer inspection you'll learn it's a rite of self-discovery.
Doing my duty as a listener of metal & goth music to vet through bands with racist or otherwise problematic connotations (that go beyond artistic purpose) so I can stop sharing and recommending their works.
There's always something better to listen to.
There's always something better to listen to.
January 12, 2026 at 2:49 PM
Doing my duty as a listener of metal & goth music to vet through bands with racist or otherwise problematic connotations (that go beyond artistic purpose) so I can stop sharing and recommending their works.
There's always something better to listen to.
There's always something better to listen to.
Taking the bait and spitting it right back up because I'm bulimarexic.
January 12, 2026 at 10:14 AM
Taking the bait and spitting it right back up because I'm bulimarexic.
Not sure if I should coax myself to eat 200 more calories or accept I'm not hungry. Total for today is "only" 1024 cal.
January 10, 2026 at 6:16 PM
Not sure if I should coax myself to eat 200 more calories or accept I'm not hungry. Total for today is "only" 1024 cal.
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🪁 A design approach based on traditional kite and Wallcreeper!Maybe will make it possible for flying in the future?🧐
#bird #birdart #illustration #digitalart #kite #design #animal #animalart #conceptart #ornamental
#bird #birdart #illustration #digitalart #kite #design #animal #animalart #conceptart #ornamental
January 10, 2026 at 4:20 PM
🪁 A design approach based on traditional kite and Wallcreeper!Maybe will make it possible for flying in the future?🧐
#bird #birdart #illustration #digitalart #kite #design #animal #animalart #conceptart #ornamental
#bird #birdart #illustration #digitalart #kite #design #animal #animalart #conceptart #ornamental
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Thought I'd share what my diet looks like on a usual day when I'm not struggling with b/p. (No photos.)
January 10, 2026 at 9:17 AM
Thought I'd share what my diet looks like on a usual day when I'm not struggling with b/p. (No photos.)
I love the female vocals in Lord Belial's albums, particularly in Enter The Moonlight Gate and The Seal of Belial 🖤
January 10, 2026 at 9:03 AM
I love the female vocals in Lord Belial's albums, particularly in Enter The Moonlight Gate and The Seal of Belial 🖤
soundcloud.com
January 10, 2026 at 8:42 AM
Wanted to find more metal bands to listen to and selected a few based on the album art and I understand now why people hate on war metal lol. Some of this stuff is horrible. 🤮🤘😆
January 9, 2026 at 9:29 AM
Wanted to find more metal bands to listen to and selected a few based on the album art and I understand now why people hate on war metal lol. Some of this stuff is horrible. 🤮🤘😆
Having the most terrible b/p urges since 6am. I'm not sure how to cope.
January 9, 2026 at 5:59 AM
Having the most terrible b/p urges since 6am. I'm not sure how to cope.
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the worst lie the disorder tells you is that it will give you control you don't have.
it takes everything from you. including your control.
it takes everything from you. including your control.
January 4, 2026 at 7:21 PM
the worst lie the disorder tells you is that it will give you control you don't have.
it takes everything from you. including your control.
it takes everything from you. including your control.
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I've always thought that I peaked in 2023 with these two
illustrations; they're only three days apart. For me, they were a turning point because, aside from helping me improve a lot, I haven't been able to create anything similar that I like as much as these 🫶
illustrations; they're only three days apart. For me, they were a turning point because, aside from helping me improve a lot, I haven't been able to create anything similar that I like as much as these 🫶
October 29, 2025 at 4:37 PM
I've always thought that I peaked in 2023 with these two
illustrations; they're only three days apart. For me, they were a turning point because, aside from helping me improve a lot, I haven't been able to create anything similar that I like as much as these 🫶
illustrations; they're only three days apart. For me, they were a turning point because, aside from helping me improve a lot, I haven't been able to create anything similar that I like as much as these 🫶
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Solitude in thought.
The rambles in the mind that squirm and connect to the surroundings. It’s logic, it’s art, it’s magic, it’s madness.
The rambles in the mind that squirm and connect to the surroundings. It’s logic, it’s art, it’s magic, it’s madness.
October 20, 2025 at 4:52 PM
Solitude in thought.
The rambles in the mind that squirm and connect to the surroundings. It’s logic, it’s art, it’s magic, it’s madness.
The rambles in the mind that squirm and connect to the surroundings. It’s logic, it’s art, it’s magic, it’s madness.
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Contrary to the illusion, in truth I hate anorexia & I'm applying a lot of conscious effort to stop the thoughts that tell me to starve.
Breakfast & lunch in total 616 calories, I gotta at least double that by evening but I'm not sure how.
Breakfast & lunch in total 616 calories, I gotta at least double that by evening but I'm not sure how.
January 8, 2026 at 10:37 AM
Contrary to the illusion, in truth I hate anorexia & I'm applying a lot of conscious effort to stop the thoughts that tell me to starve.
Breakfast & lunch in total 616 calories, I gotta at least double that by evening but I'm not sure how.
Breakfast & lunch in total 616 calories, I gotta at least double that by evening but I'm not sure how.
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December 17, 2025 at 2:46 PM
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Drawing I made last year of the band Cult of Fire ✍️
#art #drawing #charcoal #darkart #blackmetal #cultoffire
#art #drawing #charcoal #darkart #blackmetal #cultoffire
January 5, 2026 at 2:59 PM
Drawing I made last year of the band Cult of Fire ✍️
#art #drawing #charcoal #darkart #blackmetal #cultoffire
#art #drawing #charcoal #darkart #blackmetal #cultoffire
Goals for today:
- 10k steps
- 1.4k calories
- finish writing chapter 2 of Unnamed story (edit later)
- 10k steps
- 1.4k calories
- finish writing chapter 2 of Unnamed story (edit later)
January 8, 2026 at 8:18 AM
Goals for today:
- 10k steps
- 1.4k calories
- finish writing chapter 2 of Unnamed story (edit later)
- 10k steps
- 1.4k calories
- finish writing chapter 2 of Unnamed story (edit later)