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Searke
@searke.bsky.social
Math / Scientific Computing / Gay

https://www.instagram.com/unrelentinglethargy/
I am also too psycho-emotionally collapsed after the holiday season to function
January 5, 2026 at 6:21 PM
Another side effect is I may have low tolerance for anyone's self-deprecations and violently lash out against them with supportive counter framing statements.
January 4, 2026 at 10:20 PM
Lapsang reminds me of camping.
January 4, 2026 at 10:08 PM
Conditional book recommendations count and you get a maximum number per year.
January 4, 2026 at 5:45 AM
Sigh. I'm not going to avoid the hockey thing am I?

As a gay man who's had his life ruined with anxieties,

Should I get HBO for a damn month and watch it? Should I read the books?
January 4, 2026 at 5:42 AM
Out: requiring rigorous and principal analysis to explain changes in taste.

In: accepting the causes of change of taste can be ineffable and changing over time
January 4, 2026 at 5:39 AM
I'm brewing some cardamom tea and cleaning my apartment so it's fucking presentable and will get back to this when I think of the damn rest.
January 3, 2026 at 1:41 AM
Out:
- Forcing myself to read entire books I think are awful because my friends want me to read them.

In:
- F@#$ them. They don't read shit anyway. I'm quitting their book after a few chapters if it's bad and then only if I get it thru a damn public library.
January 3, 2026 at 1:38 AM
No.. No food I WILL serve to other people at some point.
January 3, 2026 at 1:32 AM
Out:
- Food as a solitary practice

In:
- Food I could imagine serving to other people.
January 3, 2026 at 1:27 AM
Out:
- Low energy pop psych

In:
- Ritualized Conference with Jungian Archetypes
January 3, 2026 at 1:27 AM
Out:
- Lapsang. Oolong. Pu-erh

In:
- Darjeeling. Boring Japanese green teas
January 3, 2026 at 1:27 AM
Out:
- Believing that recreation and relaxation has to be spontaneous or should ideally be found in my technical interests.
In:
- Committing to solid blocks where I have to refocus away from my career
January 3, 2026 at 1:27 AM
Out:
- Manual bespoke business processes that only I can do
In:
- Investing in frameworks for automating that only I can maintain
January 3, 2026 at 1:27 AM
Amateur. I have hacked the original algorithm used in "The Bible Code", upgraded them with quantum mechanics, and applied them to the aphorisms of the Genealogy of Morals and Zarathustra. The key to becoming the Ubermensch at long last revealed: "Be sure to drink your Ovaltine"
January 2, 2026 at 7:58 PM
It's very Straussian.
January 2, 2026 at 7:22 PM
I had considered my teenage dover thrift edition copy of "Thus Spoke Zarathrustra", but God knows I'm trying not to encourage you to discuss philosophy.
January 2, 2026 at 7:20 PM
January 2, 2026 at 7:18 PM
I didn't feel like the book really uncritically praised the Anarcho-moon-dwellers. Hopefully people wouldn't think my policy would be to put them onto the moon to live in anarchy just because of my book choice.
January 2, 2026 at 7:16 PM