I guess what I am trying to get at here is different does not mean less, it does not mean broken.
September 23, 2025 at 9:29 PM
I guess what I am trying to get at here is different does not mean less, it does not mean broken.
Sure, life would be easier if there was a “magic pill” he could take that would make things “all better”. But better for whom?
September 23, 2025 at 9:24 PM
Sure, life would be easier if there was a “magic pill” he could take that would make things “all better”. But better for whom?
I realize now that autism is WHO HE IS. He would not be who he is without having had to struggle.
September 23, 2025 at 9:23 PM
I realize now that autism is WHO HE IS. He would not be who he is without having had to struggle.
I spent so much time wishing this didn’t “happen” to him, wishing he could be “normal”, wishing he didn’t have to struggle.
September 23, 2025 at 9:22 PM
I spent so much time wishing this didn’t “happen” to him, wishing he could be “normal”, wishing he didn’t have to struggle.
And I felt guilt. I felt defeated. I felt pity for myself, and for my son. It wasn’t fair. Why? Why me? Why him? Why us?
September 23, 2025 at 9:19 PM
And I felt guilt. I felt defeated. I felt pity for myself, and for my son. It wasn’t fair. Why? Why me? Why him? Why us?
He was explosive, out of control and a danger to others. Placing him out of the home didn’t come easy.
September 23, 2025 at 9:16 PM
He was explosive, out of control and a danger to others. Placing him out of the home didn’t come easy.
They would get him stable, then discharge. Behaviors would come back. He would get admitted again.
September 23, 2025 at 9:15 PM
They would get him stable, then discharge. Behaviors would come back. He would get admitted again.
He spent more time in treatment than out of treatment facilities during his teens.
September 23, 2025 at 9:15 PM
He spent more time in treatment than out of treatment facilities during his teens.
Down the medication road we began. The behaviors intensified during his teenage years. Medications were changed. Inpatient and residential treatments commenced.
September 23, 2025 at 9:14 PM
Down the medication road we began. The behaviors intensified during his teenage years. Medications were changed. Inpatient and residential treatments commenced.
He was around 6/7 when negative behaviors started. He acted out, became aggressive. Medication was recommended.
September 23, 2025 at 9:13 PM
He was around 6/7 when negative behaviors started. He acted out, became aggressive. Medication was recommended.
Nothing helped. Nothing took away the thing that stole my son from me.
September 23, 2025 at 9:12 PM
Nothing helped. Nothing took away the thing that stole my son from me.
I tried high dose vitamin supplements. Then came gluten and casein free diets, no artificial food dyes, no preservatives, etc, etc.
September 23, 2025 at 9:11 PM
I tried high dose vitamin supplements. Then came gluten and casein free diets, no artificial food dyes, no preservatives, etc, etc.
I jumped head first into the rabbit hole of “treatments” and “cures”. I attended presentations and joined support groups. I read countless books.
September 23, 2025 at 9:09 PM
I jumped head first into the rabbit hole of “treatments” and “cures”. I attended presentations and joined support groups. I read countless books.
I struggled with the diagnosis initially. I played “what if” scenarios in my head over and over again. I grieved for my son; for the shattered dreams and things he wouldn’t experience. And I had guilt.
September 23, 2025 at 9:08 PM
I struggled with the diagnosis initially. I played “what if” scenarios in my head over and over again. I grieved for my son; for the shattered dreams and things he wouldn’t experience. And I had guilt.
As an autism mom, I have never wanted anything less than for my son to reach his full potential.
September 23, 2025 at 9:05 PM
As an autism mom, I have never wanted anything less than for my son to reach his full potential.
I mean, I get it. I really do.
September 23, 2025 at 9:05 PM
I mean, I get it. I really do.