Not sure if I'll see the end of this year... I'm leaving, please don't follow me

I wanted you to be my best man when we grew up, but you can't even be there for me on a normal day when I need you there... you've done it before, put your shitty bf above me but I would never do that to you, so why? I just want a good friend... a good one.

I want so badly to beg you to put more effort in, to text me, call me, ask me how I'm doing first... but it won't make a difference because you won't. You wouldn't. I was there for you, a constant solid, but now you've decided to leave me behind because... why? I wanted you in my wedding one day.