I’m so sorry you are on this journey as well. 🫂

Not really. I spent some time alone with my mom after the big gatherings, which helped. My stepfather died this spring so we are able to be there for each other. I definitely feel what you mean about not being able to face the future. It’s all I can do to remain rooted in the present.

Thank you. x Yes, I haven’t encountered it yet for myself as it is still so new but I watched my best friend go through that as a young widow, and I went through a version of that friend drop off when I became chronically ill and disabled.

And I am painfully aware of this grief stretching out endlessly in front of me. I have seen how the support for my best friend dropped off after she was widowed although she carries it with her 17 years later. It will only be two months for me tomorrow. #grief #childloss

I was so blessed to be surrounded by people who loved both Zeta & me, & to go out with my oldest friends after the reception but I had major event drop afterwards. I had the thought “I will never have this much support ever again.” Unless I marry again I’ll never have these people gathered with me.

I’m so sorry for your loss. My Zeta was 22 & also died by suicide in October. They had been hospitalized repeatedly since early high school but they had been having a great year in school, work, their relationship, & with family & friends. They had always sought out help before. I’m still in shock.