Sometimes feeling it is the only cure

But i know this isn’t permanent… this moment will pass. It’s hard now but not forever…

Thousand tabs open in my heart n brain all at once. The worst part is all of them important, none of them are fluff…

How did I just watch The Bear for the first time? The chaos, the calm, the smiles… exactly like my brain trying to balance creative flow and logic. Ouch. Help.

you know what’s hard?
translating what’s in my head to the people i work with.
like, i have all these abstract thoughts, moods, layers… but when the crew asks me,
“so what are we shooting?”

I don’t know where to start…

All of this happens before the camera even comes out of its bag.

My brain gets tangled, but it’s always intentional…

Not too posed, not too perfect. And again: not too safe…

The energy needs to move. The angles need to surprise.

Client’s Brief: Most of the time is cool n beautiful… but to be honest, I always feel they’re too safe. I’ve seen this mood a hundred times.

So I start doing what I always do when a brief feels predictable: I search for the twist.

Especially in pre-production, most of the time it feels like I’m lost in a dimension where I can’t even hold onto anything solid. But I stay there until something clicks.

As a photographer, I don’t really rely on luck. I think. A lot. Maybe too much.

starting with a little story on how my brain tangles before the work begins.

🌞🦋 nice to meet you.

i’m here instead of X because i want a quieter space to write, share, and connect.