Gonna meal prep when I wake up, then go grocery shopping
Gonna continue cleaning room & doing asm in between, hopefully I get most things done, idk

Do I like my blonde era? Yeah I do but damn my first time bleaching my own hair
NGL It's hilarious & hectic, oh well, now I know to NEVER bleach & dye last minute

Expanding on this, today is my 1st time telling my family I've been going to counselling, and I'm glad they r understanding and considerate
Even tho I'm far from home, their words mean a lot to me, and even encourage me to do what I want to do
It's reassuring, makes me firm to my ideologies & things

Talk about someone that's more tomboy-ish but reeks bitchy attitude
It's not that hard to say 'I have other plans so I can't travel with you' instead girl proceeded to ghost
Instead of being a lawyer you should be a HR, ur skill shines there
I wont tolerate someone who doesnt reciprocate friendships

The fact that people do things together, but not me; is disheartening & stressing me
Wdym I do everything 'alone'? Why am I excluded? It's not cool of me thinking I should always 'have someone' its crazy

Talk about 1st class honours...

Wdym I've always put attention on others but no one ever puts attention on me aside from my parents
As if I might as well juz disappear

I cant do this I cant

Idk what to do... I hate having romantic feelings towards people bcz for me, friendships are more important
Even tho I might not be as important to them, idk, hahaha
Human connection is still one of my biggest weakness and tbh I hate that part of myself time to time
Idk what to do with it