I feel doomed and I can't escape this feeling. I'm trying hard. But it feels like everything I am is in decline. And I'm scared.

It's what I'm supposed to do, but turning the other cheek becomes incredibly difficult when you know that person would not do the same for you in a million years. It is very difficult for me to forgive when it feels like I'm expected to just move on from being mistreated fairly quickly.

I feel that I'm slipping into the back pocket of everyone's lives and that I will never escape.

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever truly feel like I belong somewhere.

I'm getting angrier every day about how much time I have to lose for my job and how I'm still broke at the end of the week anyway

To some extent, it feels like even within the trans community, there's a lot of internal policing about how we're allowed to express gender. That conversation is being had, but I still think there's a lot to be addressed. I love my cis allies who genuinely just affirm me no question, 1/2

Lately I feel short of the words I really want to say to properly convey how much I care for my loved ones, but that won't stop me trying to find a way to express it.

I love being subtweeted by someone who is clearly irritated I talk about and repost political content. Just unfollow me if you don't want to see it.

If you can see this account, I want you to know I love you, and cherish you in my heart.

Am I doing wrong by anyone

I hate myself for being too poor to move out despite working decently long hours every week.

I feel like I vary between being far too clingy and feeling afraid to bother people with a message every other day

I want to do a lot better about remembering plans and remembering not to double book or overbook my days. I really want to be there for everyone as much as I can be and I overreach to make it happen quite a lot. But I hope I can manage it better for the future so people know they can depend on me.

Misgendering is not a little thing. It's a subtle rejection of someone's identity and especially when someone has told you how they want to be addressed. A slip of the tongue hints at being seen as your birth gender and not your chosen one. It fucking sucks.