But also thank you if you actually sat and read this far. I'm kind of an emotional wreck right now but I am believing in the best that regardless of what happens next, things will happen as they should 🩵

And with that, I am going to bed. Sheesh, talk about a crazy first post LOL #MightDeleteLater 💫

Me as an individual outside of internet personas. Which for the most part, a lot of what I express is truly me. This is just, another side that does not get shown on the internet. This is like if I were to talk with someone IRL or just talk to myself really lol. So, sorry? 16/?

Lol I'm just remembering in Vinland Saga how Thorfinn attempts to solve an issue with a conversation. That is probably what needs to happen. I am so sorry to like the three or four of you who see this and decide to read it all. This is all over the place but you are getting a small glimpse into 15/?

One reason another, next year going forward I am taking the Thorfinn from Vinland Saga approach and saying that I have no enemies or people I hold negative feelings towards anymore. Because life is too short to hold grudges and we need each other; especially now with how crazy the world is. 14/?

Is lowkey giving me anxiety about it. But I feel like I gotta get these thoughts out somewhere before I go to sleep tonight or I'll go crazy lol. I truly wouldn't wish this on anyone; not even my worst enemy. And I made the decision already that despite relationships that have come and gone for 13/?

Too fast and I have other things going on in my personal life that make it hard for me to balance everything while finding time to rest. I just finished the first semester, which was a major struggle in itself, and I feel like the clock is ticking for me to make this decision. Even typing this 12/?

There be a conversation between myself, her, and the director of the MA program to discuss this whole situation and see if it is something that can truly be resolved. Again, I'm someone who HATES confrontation but if I leave it like that it'll just be my history repeating itself. Time is moving 11/?

But I put others above myself way too much and it causes me to neglect myself. I acknowledge it and I'm aware of it but I can't help it. It's just in my nature as a person. It's what I've done all my life, to a fault.

I spoke with someone from the disability program today and she suggested 10/?

Until 2027). I am someone who despises confrontation and would rather just be at peace with people at all times. However, I know that leads to me becoming a doormat a lot of the time. At the beginning of this year I made the decision to make decisions for myself. 9/?

Are supporting me through this entire thing. But at the end of the day it is all up to me. This isn't even my end goal though. Medical assisting isn't where I want to work at the end of all this. I want to work in Radiology; which is a WHOLLEEEE other story (TLDR that program doesn't go up again 8/?

Next semester. I don't know, I want to succeed. I want to say that I put in all the effort I could to succeed. But the weight of this is so heavy that it burdens me so much. I am person of faith so that is where a lot of my strength comes from. That and I have a large collection of people who 7/?

I truly don't even know what I want to do. Because if I do this; which, spoiler alert, I have already been in contact with people in the disability program at my college, there could be some MAJOR tension between myself and the director of the program; who happens to also be a professor in the 6/?

I won't be able to pass the necessary procedures next semester. But how much do I want to fight for this? Because there is still the possibility that I might not be able to pass these procedures with my disability. Idk, the whole thing seems so messed up but everything is happening so fast that 5/?

But after speaking with numerous people about this, a majority of them mentioned that this is a violation of ADA (Americans with Disabilities Act) and I should pursue appealing her verbal decision to have me drop out. AKA, fight for my right to stay in the program regardless of being told 4/?

And they would each write me letters of recommendation. Because I could be wasting my time as well as the program's time (and overall student success rate, but we ain't gonna go there rn). All well and good, right? Well, I was somewhat content to leave it at that and move on. 3/?

Because I'd be dropping out early, I won't have the necessary requirements to be allowed to take the board exam to become officially certified through the program. The director of the program said I can apply for front office jobs and I can use her name as well as my other professors' names 2/?