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My mom and dad try to inspire me to find new hobbies, but nothing seems to help. It’s so frustrating, every day feels the same, with no change at all, and it’s been like this for almost four years.

Even reaching milestones or getting good grades in school doesn’t bring me any joy. Everything feels monotonous and neutral.

Im probably going to kill myself if I dont gratuate this year, Im going to overdose on sleeping pills or something.

Im a failure, everyone would be happy if I would disappear.

I always hoped that it would get better, but it doesnt. Never. Ive always pushed myself to stay alive another month,... but it gets to much, I cant take this anymore.

I want to have the energy and motivation to study at school, go out with friends, learn new things, exercise, but I cant. Its so frustrating and I dont know what to do against it.

It does not matter how much I sleep. At the weekend I sleep up to 12 hours, during the week I sleep 3-5 hours.

Im so excited for Cosmic