idk if you’re asking for a reason but there’s lots of things that can cause rsd (unusually severe reactions to rejection/disapproval)

its a common adhd thing, some personality disorders, probably some other stuff

I have to like, completely remove myself BEFORE the thing is said or it’s extremely difficult to calm down from whether i stay and argue or not

basically splitting/devaluation bc disrespect makes me super defensive

Makes it sound threatening in the beginning, but like in a graceful way

Like music to swordfight an eccentric prince to

its a bit odd bc i have a reputation for being very bold with how i present myself but i guess that’s how my brain decided to fight the mommy issues, with disconnect

trying to get over my trauma-induced fear of self expression around parents

has improved some but i still get this instinctual fear of condescension/degradation simply for showing any sense of self agency especially around mom bc she’s far worse

wish i could stop caring what they think

yes, it wouldn’t work in the current structure

mostly a hypothetical scenario at this point because society still has patriarchy so far stuck up its ass

matriarchy doesn’t necessarily mean oppression of men, but rather a school of thought based on the antithesis of “masculine” principles, which are entirely based on a toxic insecurity leading to misogyny and that kind of frequent violence

rurudo is amazing

its from a members only stream and in japanese anyway

NOM NOM NOM