That Random Sober Friend
@soberamie.bsky.social
Clean and sober for over 3 years
Cello player
Searching for Serenity
Cello player
Searching for Serenity
That is just... just... such.. a shitty... thing.
Texas can't be far behind!
I hate this place more and more every day...
Texas can't be far behind!
I hate this place more and more every day...
February 8, 2026 at 7:16 PM
That is just... just... such.. a shitty... thing.
Texas can't be far behind!
I hate this place more and more every day...
Texas can't be far behind!
I hate this place more and more every day...
That is because the UK still has a sense of honor, shame and dingity... consequences... even if not directly paid.. happen on some level...
The US? Ehhhh.... not so much!
The US? Ehhhh.... not so much!
February 8, 2026 at 7:12 PM
That is because the UK still has a sense of honor, shame and dingity... consequences... even if not directly paid.. happen on some level...
The US? Ehhhh.... not so much!
The US? Ehhhh.... not so much!
you have no idea... well, maybe... but it is worse than you can imagine...
when your self worth is measured literally by the customers you interact with... make a big bag.. you are a goddess... make nothing.. you're worthless... and none of it is in your control.
It is not for the faint hearted!
when your self worth is measured literally by the customers you interact with... make a big bag.. you are a goddess... make nothing.. you're worthless... and none of it is in your control.
It is not for the faint hearted!
February 8, 2026 at 7:09 PM
you have no idea... well, maybe... but it is worse than you can imagine...
when your self worth is measured literally by the customers you interact with... make a big bag.. you are a goddess... make nothing.. you're worthless... and none of it is in your control.
It is not for the faint hearted!
when your self worth is measured literally by the customers you interact with... make a big bag.. you are a goddess... make nothing.. you're worthless... and none of it is in your control.
It is not for the faint hearted!
My feelings are like a thermometer taking the temperature of my emotional, mental and physical wellbeing...
If I get those right, my temperature reads "happy" or "content"... it's just the measure, not the underlying condition.
If I get those right, my temperature reads "happy" or "content"... it's just the measure, not the underlying condition.
February 8, 2026 at 7:05 PM
My feelings are like a thermometer taking the temperature of my emotional, mental and physical wellbeing...
If I get those right, my temperature reads "happy" or "content"... it's just the measure, not the underlying condition.
If I get those right, my temperature reads "happy" or "content"... it's just the measure, not the underlying condition.
in platform heels... no less...
try that Mr. Super Bowl!
try that Mr. Super Bowl!
February 8, 2026 at 6:55 PM
in platform heels... no less...
try that Mr. Super Bowl!
try that Mr. Super Bowl!
I'm just an Asiatic Pole Dancer... not that rare, but a delight to behold when you get the opportunity...
February 8, 2026 at 6:53 PM
I'm just an Asiatic Pole Dancer... not that rare, but a delight to behold when you get the opportunity...
Not a ghost... regrouping!
February 8, 2026 at 3:12 PM
Not a ghost... regrouping!
Hah! that is a good analogy!
I have worked with a therapist on some of my issues, and I have an AA sponsor who has similar experiences.. .she and i understand each other on many levels.
All of that doesn't make it all go away.. it just makes me able to live with myself today.
I have worked with a therapist on some of my issues, and I have an AA sponsor who has similar experiences.. .she and i understand each other on many levels.
All of that doesn't make it all go away.. it just makes me able to live with myself today.
February 8, 2026 at 2:18 PM
Hah! that is a good analogy!
I have worked with a therapist on some of my issues, and I have an AA sponsor who has similar experiences.. .she and i understand each other on many levels.
All of that doesn't make it all go away.. it just makes me able to live with myself today.
I have worked with a therapist on some of my issues, and I have an AA sponsor who has similar experiences.. .she and i understand each other on many levels.
All of that doesn't make it all go away.. it just makes me able to live with myself today.
No! Dammit! I am important!
My story is... unlike... anyone elses!!
You don't understand!!!!
Sponsor: Yeah.. I do... let me tell you mine...
Dammit... I want to be special!
My story is... unlike... anyone elses!!
You don't understand!!!!
Sponsor: Yeah.. I do... let me tell you mine...
Dammit... I want to be special!
February 8, 2026 at 2:05 PM
No! Dammit! I am important!
My story is... unlike... anyone elses!!
You don't understand!!!!
Sponsor: Yeah.. I do... let me tell you mine...
Dammit... I want to be special!
My story is... unlike... anyone elses!!
You don't understand!!!!
Sponsor: Yeah.. I do... let me tell you mine...
Dammit... I want to be special!
started to put it ALL down, starting when i was young... I might get so wrapped in it that I couldn't stop and the memories would flood onto the page...
i know if would help... if i could be honest about it.
i know if would help... if i could be honest about it.
February 7, 2026 at 6:39 PM
started to put it ALL down, starting when i was young... I might get so wrapped in it that I couldn't stop and the memories would flood onto the page...
i know if would help... if i could be honest about it.
i know if would help... if i could be honest about it.
Ive tried journalling before... with limited success.
I sometimes find it hard to be honest with myself even. I want to write things in a way that when i go back to them in a few years' time I won't think too harshly of myself.
that self-editing is so dangerous to my recovery!
if i ever really....
I sometimes find it hard to be honest with myself even. I want to write things in a way that when i go back to them in a few years' time I won't think too harshly of myself.
that self-editing is so dangerous to my recovery!
if i ever really....
February 7, 2026 at 6:39 PM
Ive tried journalling before... with limited success.
I sometimes find it hard to be honest with myself even. I want to write things in a way that when i go back to them in a few years' time I won't think too harshly of myself.
that self-editing is so dangerous to my recovery!
if i ever really....
I sometimes find it hard to be honest with myself even. I want to write things in a way that when i go back to them in a few years' time I won't think too harshly of myself.
that self-editing is so dangerous to my recovery!
if i ever really....
I just wanted it all to go away... and it did for a while, until it didn't work... but I continued to try... until nothing worked... and then i was left with only myself... struggling to make it work... and I was no match!
February 7, 2026 at 3:36 PM
I just wanted it all to go away... and it did for a while, until it didn't work... but I continued to try... until nothing worked... and then i was left with only myself... struggling to make it work... and I was no match!
I just need someone to bring me a coffee (not tea!)...
also note... did not wake up next to someone I didn't know this morning... so... again... win for #sobriety
also note... did not wake up next to someone I didn't know this morning... so... again... win for #sobriety
February 7, 2026 at 1:15 PM
I just need someone to bring me a coffee (not tea!)...
also note... did not wake up next to someone I didn't know this morning... so... again... win for #sobriety
also note... did not wake up next to someone I didn't know this morning... so... again... win for #sobriety
Of course, the problem is that I'm WIDE awake at 7 AM... should I lay here and scroll my phone or get up and be productive?
These are the challenges you have when you don't have a hangover!!!
These are the challenges you have when you don't have a hangover!!!
February 7, 2026 at 12:55 PM
Of course, the problem is that I'm WIDE awake at 7 AM... should I lay here and scroll my phone or get up and be productive?
These are the challenges you have when you don't have a hangover!!!
These are the challenges you have when you don't have a hangover!!!
A lot of my addiction stemmed from my response to personal trauma. Hiding from the shame and pain of the past, I just wanted to numb it all and even punish myself for what I saw as my part in it...
I'm not ever going to be completely free, but I can live with it today... and that's okay with me!
I'm not ever going to be completely free, but I can live with it today... and that's okay with me!
February 7, 2026 at 7:16 AM
A lot of my addiction stemmed from my response to personal trauma. Hiding from the shame and pain of the past, I just wanted to numb it all and even punish myself for what I saw as my part in it...
I'm not ever going to be completely free, but I can live with it today... and that's okay with me!
I'm not ever going to be completely free, but I can live with it today... and that's okay with me!
Way to go 3 club!
3 plus 6 months for me!
Woohoo!!!
3 plus 6 months for me!
Woohoo!!!
February 7, 2026 at 6:03 AM
Way to go 3 club!
3 plus 6 months for me!
Woohoo!!!
3 plus 6 months for me!
Woohoo!!!
the drugs served to numb myself from the shame, to alleviate my guilt from the lying and hurting people... they were my ultimate eraser for the feelings I had about my life and how I saw others.
My amends.. making things better for myself and others... helps me fill the voids.. but they still remain
My amends.. making things better for myself and others... helps me fill the voids.. but they still remain
February 6, 2026 at 2:22 PM
the drugs served to numb myself from the shame, to alleviate my guilt from the lying and hurting people... they were my ultimate eraser for the feelings I had about my life and how I saw others.
My amends.. making things better for myself and others... helps me fill the voids.. but they still remain
My amends.. making things better for myself and others... helps me fill the voids.. but they still remain
Truly this is one of the greatest gifts of sobriety... being there for others.
Living selflessly, if only for a moment, was something I could not do.
As I grow in my recovery, I am learning that true love comes from giving of myself, not just taking from the world.
Living selflessly, if only for a moment, was something I could not do.
As I grow in my recovery, I am learning that true love comes from giving of myself, not just taking from the world.
February 6, 2026 at 6:39 AM
Truly this is one of the greatest gifts of sobriety... being there for others.
Living selflessly, if only for a moment, was something I could not do.
As I grow in my recovery, I am learning that true love comes from giving of myself, not just taking from the world.
Living selflessly, if only for a moment, was something I could not do.
As I grow in my recovery, I am learning that true love comes from giving of myself, not just taking from the world.
I love that you can capture this moment... and understand it !
February 5, 2026 at 8:51 PM
I love that you can capture this moment... and understand it !
I love this shoot... the darkness is never so frightening if you are not alone....
February 5, 2026 at 7:51 PM
I love this shoot... the darkness is never so frightening if you are not alone....