the r slur dropped at work where we work with people who r victims of crime n trauma is insaneeee

i really fucking hope this doesn’t affect my stupid test tomorrow

im so stupid thinking everything would change… i thinks falling into the same patterns over and over again is just inevitable at this point

Embroidery helps, though

feeling absolutely manic hihi 🤭

my gf probably doesnt love me and i dont blame her for that

That's it. It's official. I'm done with people. I don't care anymore. Society is fucked.

*someone shows me the slightest bit of attention*

Okay I'm back in.

i dont think i’ll ever be happy and i dont know if its worth knowing that and still trying. i hate having to hope and having to pray that one day happiness will come to me because it hasnt yet and i dont know if its worth holding on to something so unattainable

i feel like my partner will ever understand my struggles and sometimes i just want her to leave me

an hour commute isnt even that bad a lot of the time.. absolutely baffling that so many people complain abt commuting anywhere

lowkey hate seeing beautiful boudoir pictures knowing i will never be able to achieve those looks bc
a. im fat but not the nice looking curvy people
b. im wanna b more masc so the lingerie just wouldnt look good on me

i love to think of worst case scenarios 🥰🥰🥰

unlovableunlovableunlovableunloveableunloveableunloveable unloveableunloveableunloveable

god i hate socmed sometimes bc u think ur finally in a safe space to be yourself and maybe even feel good a lil bit but no one wants a fat (properly fat not just curvy or buff muscular) non dominant brown butch

i dont know why i care so much or why im invested in it but i lowkey hate my gf’s friend who just broke up with her partner but they still interact?? maybe im just a natural hater but cmon

i know its not even a thing i need to care abt but my guts keep telling me something else

tw - suicidal thoughts + general venting

i will never be enough - not enough for my family not enough for my friends not enough for my job never and especially not enough for my girlfriend

so what if i just tried to kms.. haha jk unless??