mmm

wow christmas AND new years sucked

dont look at me

what an absolutely fucking dogshit way to end everything

going to be very emotional the next few days i think
idk
processing things is hard and ive noticed im getting upset with people over very little
if im quiet
or if im snippy
please dont take it personally
im sorry in advance

crazy how he has to keep saying hes not an ogre because hes never done anything to prove it

nervous

i want to throw up

ill have to talk with my doctors soon
rheumatology is on the 30th
im hoping this is finally when i get the answers ive been after since i was a kid
but its so fucking hard to motivate myself to keep going
especially now when coming up to this all
ive spent so much time in bed
barely even a person

i suppose ill use this as a personal place til we get priv accounts and an actual community or sum shit

that being said
wow
i have never felt more like "my flesh is a prison" than i have recently
itd be nice to shed my body and be something fresh and new
i hate the way it makes me feel

rraaagghhh

wrow